Jiang Baige met Chen Xi outside the ICU ward.
Chen Xi's skin color was already white, and now it almost blended in with the white color of the hospital. The thick dark circles under his eyes were more prominent, and his pupils were out of focus.
It was not until Jiang Baige walked up to her that she seemed to wake up from a dream.
"Ah, you're here..."
Jiang Baige turned on her phone and wanted to order a takeaway for her, but then she remembered that takeout was not so booming now.
He had no choice but to help Chen Xi sit down: "I just went to the ward to ask, and the nurse said that Senior Sister Jing was admitted to the ICU again."
"Well, the situation suddenly worsened again. It has been moved to the general ward in two days." Chen Xi rubbed his temples, yawned, and squeezed out a few tears from the corners of his eyes.
Jiang Baige looked around: "Why are you alone? Where are Senior Sister Jing's parents?"
Chen Xi shook his head: "I didn't dare to tell them. Auntie just two years ago She had a major cancer surgery, and we usually don’t dare to irritate her.”
No wonder Jing Chai fell into isolation after being coerced by Chen Dongguo.
"But Senior Sister Jing hasn't contacted them for a few days, and they haven't called to show their concern?"
"Uncle accompanied aunt on a cruise to relax, so..." A smile appeared on Chen Xi's lips, "It's still the royalties from Chaichai's last novel."
Jiang Baige's first reaction was: The royalties from literary magazines are actually so much?
After all, she wrote a million words in her last book, but she only received a few thousand yuan in royalties.
Chen Xi probably also saw it: "Of course it's not just that one. And Chaochai is a very strong person. Since she wants to invite her mother to relax, she will naturally prepare the money."
"Could it be that...she had wanted to commit suicide a long time ago?"
"Impossible." Chen Xi said decisively, "You knew about Chaichai's allergic reaction and hospitalization before, right? At that time, I Every time I come here, I see her writing in front of the computer."
Chen Xi raised his head with a serious look on his face: "Bai Ge, you also write novels, so tell me how you feel. People who realize that they still have many stories to write... would want to commit suicide? ”
No.
Jiang Baige almost blurted out.
Suddenly, Jiang Baige connected the events of the previous life with the events of this life...
Instead of answering Chen Xi, he asked her a strange question: "Just now On the phone, you told me that my senior sister committed suicide by turning on the gas at home. If you hadn't rushed back in time... was the 'home' you mentioned her home?"
"No, it was my home. Because Chaichai had just been discharged from the hospital and her parents went out to play again, I was worried that it would be unsafe for her to be alone in the rental house, so I took her home."
Sure enough...and.Jiang Baige guessed the same.
But before she could ask any more questions, the nurse came to call Chen Xi. It turned out that Jing Chai came to the rescue again and kept her under observation for another night. If there was no problem, she could be sent back to the general ward.
Chen Xi finally breathed a sigh of relief, but then collapsed. After all, she has been busy all alone these past few days, and her body has long been unable to bear it.
If this continues, I'm afraid Jing Chai will wake up and Chen Xi will have to fetch water again.
Jiang Baige immediately decided to take over Chen Xi's "job". After handing over, he sent Chen Xi to a taxi and let her have a good rest for two days.
After all this was done, Jiang Baige's cell phone rang again.
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It was Shi Xin, saying that the opening ceremony was over now, and asked her where she was now and if she wanted to have a meal together. He might join the group in a while and would not be in Lincheng by then.
Of course Jiang Baige would not agree.
On the contrary, she thought it was good that Shi Xin was away recently, so that no one would distract her attention, and she could take care of Jingchai.
The next day, Jing Chai successfully passed the critical period and returned to the general ward. Jiang Baige also saw her again after nearly two months.
Her eyes were closed, but her face was very calm. It was almost impossible to tell that she had wandered before the gate of hell twice.
Although Chen Xi went home, he hired a caregiver for Jing Chai, who could usually help Jiang Baige with some of his duties.
Jiang Baige went back to school, brought his laptop over, and continued to code diligently.
Occasionally Jing Chai would reveal something, and Jiang Bai Ge would always press the call bell excitedly, but she did not wake up.
When he was tired, he stood up, helped Jing Chai tidy up her things, and talked to her for a while - the doctor said that although she was still in a coma, she was not completely unconscious.
On this day, Jiang Baige wrote the manuscript very quickly, so she wanted to help Jing Chai organize the drawers. She remembered that Chen Xi said that she packed some daily necessities for Jing Chai so that she would not Will be in a hurry.
Jiang Baige opened the drawer and found the bag, but his eyes were attracted to the familiar book.
Now, the book with "Daughters' Alliance" written on the cover is no longer a "book from heaven" to Jiang Baige.
Because after meeting in the teahouse that day, Jing Chai gave her the "code book".
"Creating words is more difficult than imagined, so when recording, we tried to simplify, refer to, and metaphor..." Jing Chai explained with a smile, "If the founder of this organization hadn't studied folklore and Oracle bones would never think of recreating a new kind of writing."
Jiang Baige carefully took out the notebook and closed the drawer.
She always felt that this book would not appear for no reasonHere it is. So, not wanting to offend, she decided to read the contents.
The time recorded in this book is not long, the earliest date is in April when they met.
However, there are records almost every day. However, the contents above are all similar, and the reading is not as pessimistic as Jiang Baige imagined.
In this notebook, Jing Chai is more like a bystander, recording her pain, despair, unwillingness and ambivalent attitude towards life and death - she doesn't want to live, but she feels damned Not her, not to mention that she felt she was still needed by the story in her head.
Her writing style is calm and objective, completely different from the storytelling state she presents in her novels that can arouse strong empathy from readers.
Jiang Baige was surprised that such two "people" could exist in her body at the same time.
Finally, in the records in July, Jiang Baige saw Jing Chai mentioning the word "novel" for the first time - when Jing Chai was looking through his own mental journey, he thought This story needs to be written down.
She knows that she is not alone, and she also knows that she can do something: she can write down these common, invisible, and almost inexpressible pains so that more people can see them. ...
Jiang Baige flipped through and compared the records, and before he knew it, he was about to finish reading the records.
But she hasn't found the information she wants yet, and she is a little restless. At this moment, two words jumped into her eyes -
"Suicide Note"
Jiang Baige was stunned, because these two words did not use the code characters Written in standard simplified Chinese characters.