Chapter 323 Audience

Gu Weijing's heart moved.

He listened quietly to Miss Sakai telling her father’s story.

This is something that will not be recorded in any art newspaper in the world. It is the darkest moment in Professor Sakai’s life.

In the narrative of Sakai Katsuko, there is no round and smiling top artist in Asia, but only an anxious young man with a broken and desperate heart.

He has never experienced anything similar to Uncle Sakai.

But Gu Weijing could still imagine what the scene would be like.

Similar things happen every day in the art industry.

Similar reports are repeated over and over in the news.

Some people even say that every great artist will encounter one or two friends who commit suicide in his life.

He imagined that before Katsuko was born, in that small studio in Osaka, a young painter was holding a pot of charcoal fire and facing a blank canvas alone.

The calendar on the wall was torn off day after day, like a death knell.

Uncle Sakai’s life is derailing.

He lost the magic of painting and the ability to control his destiny.

So he decided to die.

At the end of the death knell, it was the funeral of his career and his life.

The contrast is really too great.

So Gu Weijing could not help but have a picture emerge in his mind.

The sky in Osaka in this picture is not the eternal blue sky and white clouds in Japanese comics, with warm sunshine.

It is as dull and dull as a cloudy sky in Yangon. It seems that the saturation of the paint is too low, making people breathless.

The young Professor Sakai is facing the camera sideways, with smoldering charcoal at his feet. He is using thick tape to block the gaps in the doors and windows, trying to block out the last light in the gray sky. Die outside.

All he was left with was gloomy ashes.

"My father even prepared a copy of Chun Die in his hands back then. It would be his relic." Sakai Katsuko pursed her lips. "That English poetry collection is still owned by my mother. It’s on the top shelf of our house.”

The Death of Spring is a famous poem by Byron describing his abandonment by his lover.

Gu Weijing guessed that Uncle Sakai probably used this to express that he had been abandoned by his muse.

Therefore.

His spring is also over.

Like some kind of metaphor and contrast.

Those famous literary and artistic workers in Japanese history chose to end their lives by committing suicide almost one after another.

Dazai Osamu jumped into the river five times alone, including Kawabata Yasunari, Akutagawa Ryunosuke, Tanaka Hidemitsu, Arishima Takero, and of course the famous three who launched a mutiny and then committed seppuku in a live broadcast on TV cameras. Shima Yukio.

However, lifeAt the end.

Professor Kazunari Sakai did not choose the common Japanese practice of seppuku or hanging. He chose the dull and sad method of burning charcoal, and he also carried a sad book of poems with him.

Gu Weijing remembered art media reports that when Uncle Sakai traveled across the ocean to study in Europe, his classmates would call him "Byron from the East."

Maybe.

That’s not just because Uncle Sakai used to look like a handsome, thin guy.

Probably before he evolved into the broad-minded fat boy he is today, he did have a passionate and sensitive heart like a poet.

Uncle Sakai really once worshiped Byron.

"What happened next?" Gu Weijing asked in a daze.

"Later, my mother found out about it." Sakai Katsuko smiled.

"At that time, my grandpa was very disapproving of the relationship between mom and dad. After mom and dad came to Japan to develop, they cut off her living expenses."

"My grandpa said , Spain is a free country, she can choose love, but since she chose to marry a yellow-skinned Tatar, she has to say goodbye to her original bag, lipstick, and Mercedes-Benz car. If she chooses the former, her husband should ask for these things, not her father. "

"It's okay if you don't want to be a good daughter, but if you choose the benefits of freedom, you must take on the responsibility of freedom. "Ms. Sakai said, "Big galleries give very little creative subsidies to painters who cannot make money. My mother voluntarily gave up her art career and applied for a job as a graphic designer at an advertising company in Osaka. At that time, my mother's living expenses were almost the same for both of them. She can afford it."

"She is very busy at work and often works overtime, and rarely disturbs her father's creation. In order to create a quiet painting environment for him, she almost never goes to the studio."

Sakai Katsuko said, "She just felt that my father was distracted all day long, and she was a little worried, so she asked for leave and wanted to take him to watch a movie with her. When she pushed the door in, she happened to see an open cabinet. There was still a charcoal basin that had been confiscated, and my dad was crying and writing a suicide note. She rushed over."

"I understand, aunt rushed over, and she gave it to Uncle Sakai like you did. A kiss. That must have been a very shocking and touching scene for Uncle Sakai."

Gu Weijing nodded and interrupted.

He guessed the development of this matter.

A lover's kiss is the warmest thing in the world, and that's how he was pulled out just now.

"Uh"

Sakai Katsuko was stunned for a moment, "That's not true. My mother was going crazy at that time. She later said that I had to work so hard to support Who could not be angry when I suddenly bumped into him and decided to die like this? She rushed up and slapped my dad twice."

" What two slaps?" Gu Weijing was shocked.

“Yes, they got married.I have only touched my hands once in so many years, when my mother slapped my father twice, so hard that the protrusion of the wedding ring on her finger made a deep cut on my father's face, which made him bleed. A lot of blood. If you look closely now, you can see a very shallow mark on his face. "

This is also a cruel attack.

"Then Uncle Sakai woke him up. ”

Gu Weijing sniffed.

After being slapped by his wife twice, he didn’t want to die. Professor Sakai is also a strange person. I didn’t expect that there are hidden flaws in his character. Known to the world as a masochist.

"Neither. "

Sakai Katsuko continued to shake her head, "As I said, it was the first time my mother hit someone, and my father was stunned. I didn't even feel any pain, I just felt in a daze and felt that my wife suddenly became a stranger. Even death was unpleasant. He felt that everything in the world was against him. He was really a waste who couldn't do anything well. "

"Well, Shengzi, you continue talking, and then. How did the uncle come out?"

Gu Weijing felt that he really couldn't grasp the brain circuits of the Sakai and his wife, the "fairy" couple.

It's better not to make random guesses. .

“My mother grabbed my dad’s collar and, in her original words, like a helpless puppy that was lost and hesitant, led my dad to a nearby building. upstairs. At that time, my father's face was still bleeding and crying. They later learned that there was even an enthusiastic citizen who saw the scene, thinking that my father was being domestically abused, and called the police station. "

Sakai Katsuko smiled.

"Osaka is a city that has grown secretly in decline. In the construction of the city, there are many unfinished buildings left behind. Keigo Higashino also wrote White Night Walk on this theme. When they went there, it was a famous local suicide spot. An unemployed middle-aged man jumped from there just two weeks ago. "

Miss Sakai held Gu Weijing's hand and crossed her fingers, "Mom led him to the unfinished roof. She told my dad that there was a possibility of being rescued by burning charcoal to commit suicide, and it would be an unpleasant death. I love you very much, but I am really tired and don’t want to work hard while waiting outside the ward in panic for the doctor to save my husband. "

"But I really love you, so if you are ready, I am willing to accompany you through the last journey of life. There are seventeen floors here, fifty meters high. The probability of falling and dying is 100, and it only takes a moment. ”

Sakai Katsuko’s tone was unhurried, and she slowly told her boyfriend the conversation between the desperate young couple.

This story happened when she was a child. Having heard it countless times, it was probably the most important conversation in her parents' lives.

Now that their daughter was retelling it in person, Gu Weijing almost had the illusion of being there. < /p>

“My mother took off her high heels first and stood on the edge of the prefabricated board at the end of the building, with the Osaka night behind her.My father said that at that time, she seemed to be standing in the endless neon night of the city, and a gust of wind would blow her away at any time. "

"My mother said that she is a person who is unwilling to look back after making a decision. She will not lower her head to find her father crying and saying that she made the mistake of marrying the wrong man. Anyway, if you die, I will jump after you. And she is a Catholic. In her religious beliefs, people who commit suicide will fall into hell forever and will not be able to escape, so she asked Mr. Sakai to do her a favor."

"But are you really ready? If you want to end your life so hastily, please push me down first, and then jump off yourself. But you must always remember that I gave myself from my father to another man who I believed would take care of me. Your cowardice will kill not only yourself, but also another person who loves you. ”

“I won’t blame you and I won’t regret it. But our souls will never embrace each other again, I will go to heaven and you will go to hell. I have paid for my love with my own life. From now on, for the rest of my life, I am not willing to be with such a cowardly person again. "

Gu Weijing lay on the board of the boat, staring blankly at the sky.

He still wore a blindfold, but he could better imagine what Miss Sakai described in his words. That scene.

A beautiful blond woman stood on a floor covered with cement chips and dust, with thousands of lights of the modern city behind her, her high heels next to her feet, and that person in front of her. The husband fell into the quagmire of depression.

She stood on the edge of the cliff with her bare feet, her clothes fluttering in the wind, and she said affectionate and decisive words.

I do. I will die for you, but our souls will not be together.

Gu Weijing actually had a very average impression of the mean and bitter Mrs. Sakai, but he also felt that the scene he imagined in his mind was very cool and beautiful. It’s incredible, it’s like a conversation that only happens on an opera stage.

“But if you still have the courage to draw a different ending to your life, bring me back. It doesn’t matter if your painting is not good, nor does the critic’s likes or dislikes. It doesn’t matter whether someone appreciates your work or not, whether you can find the next contract, the next gallery that wants to sign you. Even if no one in this country wants to appreciate your work. ”

“I will also be your only audience. "

Sakai Katsuko said word by word.

"Katsuko. "

"Yeah"

"Your mother is awesome. "Gu Weijing was so shocked that the hairs on his hair stood on end.

"Yes, she is actually a very gentle person at heart. She is a very good mother and a very good wife. I can feel that my father will never be able to live without her in this life. "

Sakai Katsuko nodded seriously.

"That night, my father stood in the cold wind on the roof for ten minutes, and then hugged my mother. passed by, wailing bitterly,Kiss her like crazy. Afraid that she would run away from his life. After he returned home, he locked himself in the studio for seven days. Except for eating and the police came to the door once, he did not leave the studio for a week. Then he painted what he thought was the most awesome work of his life. ”

Two weeks later, the agent knocked on the door of the studio with a notice of termination from Daejeon Art Gallery. With false embarrassment, he handed over the contract for him to sign.

The agent originally wanted to refuse. < /p>

When this kind of young painter who has been abandoned by the gallery receives the notice of termination of his contract, he will always come up with various ways to struggle again, just like the frog who finally saw a corner of the vast sky of the colorful world outside, and was re-entered. Before throwing it back to the bottom of the well,

He would try his best to thrash it.

He had seen many hysterical scenes. He is unwilling to sign the contract. I have seen people kneel down and kowtow, begging the gallery to give him another chance and give him another promotion meeting.

I want him to show me a painting. The gallery changed its mind, which was really too naive.

The agent originally did not want to deal with this young loser.

The decision to terminate the contract was made by Datian Art Gallery’s senior management. Even if the other party painted a flower to impress the agent, it would have no effect.

He was just a notifier, telling Uncle Sakai to clear out the studio as soon as possible, because the studio itself was also the same. The assets of the gallery will be taken back immediately after the contract is terminated and assigned to the next trial painter.

Sakai just nodded and accepted the contract. The agent was notified that he was ready to sign.

Perhaps this guy’s unusual calmness and calmness surprised the agent, or maybe it was just his sudden curiosity. The agent stood on tiptoes and peered through the crack in the studio door. After looking at the easel facing the door for three seconds, he snatched the contract from Kazunari Sakai's hand. Hao tore it into pieces without hesitation.

"Sakai-san, you will stay. Although I am not the one who can make the decision, I guarantee this to you. Please give me a chance to call and give yourself a chance. ”

Twenty minutes later.

Uncle Sakai got a place to participate in the art fair for the first time in his life. Please remember to bookmark it, the latest and fastest website can be read for free without anti-theft