Hu Tian and Hu Di stayed for a long time, and the two of them were lying in the hot spring. Yu Yao lay lazily on his chest, the blush on her face not fading.
"Will we have a baby if we do this?" she asked.
"No." Wei Shiqi remembered what Yue Shuo said in "Linchuan Miscellaneous Notes" that "may be called a mule", and he had a premonition in his heart. Interspecific hybrids are sterile, he thought coldly, like mules.
After a while, Yu Yao asked again: "...Do you like little children?"
"Not very much."
Not very much, He said it euphemistically, but his original intention might be "I don't like it." This reply shocked her and broke the warm and charming atmosphere. Yu Yao thought she didn't make it clear, so she asked in confusion: "Is this the same for my own child? "
Wei Shiqi's eyes became distant, as if he had seen the past a long time ago. He hugged Yu Yao's youthful body and expressed his thoughts for the first time, those deviant and unhuman thoughts. "They say that when they first see their children, fragile little babies, they feel the joy of blood connection. Watching them grow up, crawl on the ground, stagger around, throw themselves in your arms, and make loud noises. Laughing and making noise, all the hard work and worries will disappear. I am willing to pay no matter how much it costs for them, but I just feel noisy."
"The little child, even if it is my own child, It’s okay to be smart, beautiful, well-behaved, and cute. If they are naughty and willful children—in fact, this is the case in most cases—raising them is a kind of torture. There is motherhood in this world, but there is no fatherhood.”
< p>Yu Yao fell silent. She tried to understand his words and his thoughts, but every word was like a needle piercing her heart."I have said that you will not let me down, and I will not let you down. I also said that fair dealings are fair, and I am willing to accept defeat. But if the target is my own child, these become meaningless. Can't If you don’t give, you won’t get anything in return. That’s why I don’t like children.”
Yu Yaoxiao asked carefully: “What do you want in return?”
Wei. Seventeen laughed, "That's the problem. For parents, they are rewards in themselves, but for me, the little children can't give me what I want."
"What do you want?"
This sentence went straight to his heart. Wei Shiqi paused and felt confused for a moment.
In another world, in his forties, he abandoned all the past, cut off all karma, packed up his luggage, boarded the high-speed train south, came to a warm and unfamiliar city, and lived alone. When a person grows old, what does he want?
In this world, he ranks among the top group of monks in the pyramid. He can fly to the sky and escape from the earth, fall into the sea, kill people like chickens, and have money and beautiful women only in the palm of his hand. Although his future is unpredictable , but it is also satisfying. What does he want?
Yu Yao’s chin hit his chest, staring at him intently. She was very close, close enough to see clearly the trembling of his eyelashes, the slightest change in his expression, his heart...
Wei Shiqi told her calmly, "Being clean and free of worries is the way to be at ease."
Being clean and free of worries are parents, children, lovers, relatives and friends, Teachers, disciples, people he knows or doesn’t know, familiar people or strangers, people he cares about or people he doesn’t care about, no one can be a hindrance to him. People and things are just like the breeze blowing through the plains, the birds flying across the sky, and the flowing water flowing over the sky. Pass the white stone and leave no trace.
"It's so cruel..."
"Look at that big fireball in the sky, glowing and heating up, illuminating the mountains, forests, plains, rivers and lakes. All things benefit from it, but there is not even a trace of it. Repayment? Is there any resentment for the destruction of all things? The world is unkind and treats all things as stupid dogs. We are as small as dust and have different hearts. I am the 'unkind' one."
Yu Yao blinked, thought again and again, shook her head and said: "I... don't quite understand."
"It doesn't matter, if you want to hear it, I will explain it to you later. "
Yu Yao was stunned for a moment, with a smile on her lips. She always felt that their bodies were intimate, but their hearts were still distant. Whenever she tried to enter his world, she was always blocked intentionally or unintentionally. She pushed her away, but this time, he seemed to accept her and said some unflattering words from his heart.
That’s fine if it’s what you say from your heart. As for whether it sounds good or not, what does it matter? She likes this man, is willing to stay by his side, and give everything she has to him, no matter good or bad, whether he likes her equally or not, it doesn't matter.
She felt that he had become a stranger, and that didn’t matter. Then she should get closer and become familiar with him again.
He often leaves her and leaves her alone in the empty room. It doesn't matter, just wait patiently.
He is special, different, and unique. As long as you don't let him down, he won't let you down either. The more you give, the more bonds you will have, until they are tightly entwined together and can no longer be separated. Maybe she would never be his "hinder", but it would be nice if she could occupy a place in his heart. As long as she is strong enough and strong enough to walk beside him, then no one can separate them.
The fate is in her own hands, everything depends on her.