Some people say that in childhood, if the mind is traumatized by the impact of strong stimulating pictures.
The human brain will automatically block that part of the memory, thereby protecting the subject.
If this is true, I wish I could too.
…
Big Bear.
In my memory, there is a big bear who always stays with me.
Play with me, feed me, put me to sleep.
When it stands in front of me and opens its arms, I always laugh and bury my head in it.
The big bear’s body is so soft, I like to look up at it.
"Mom..."
"Well, what's wrong, Xiaojing?"
Mom is smiling at me.
But I asked in a trembling voice: "Shall we run away?"
My mother's face was bruised and swollen, and I couldn't see her expression.
Her smile was something I imagined.
"No, we can't leave dad behind."
"But dad is not good to mom..." I buried my head in my mother's arms again.
My mother didn’t want to leave my father. I thought she did it for me who was young at the time.
"But Xiaojing is only five years old. Our family has to live together."
But I was wrong.
"Mom? Dad?"
That day, five-year-old Kurokawa was lying quietly on the bed, woken up by the moonlight.
There was no one next to him, and the door to the room was open.
She didn't find it strange that the mechanical sound of computers operating could be heard outside.
Because life had improved, my father often heard this sound when he moved his family into an apartment.
"Mom? Where are you?"
She called out again and got out of bed when she got no response.
I started walking towards the door. The further I walked, the more I felt something was wrong.
Mom, was beaten by dad again?
This was her first thought at the time.
So she hurriedly searched for her mother in the room, but she searched every place where her mother might be and found nothing.
Only then did she realize that the entrance door was open.
The iron door opened inward, and the bright moonlight faced the outside.
Kurokawa Jing held the wall and looked up.
Found the mother who was not found at home.
Kurokawa Rou's body was hanging upside down at this time, falling towards Kurokawa Shizu in the air.
Her face was still bloated and expressionless.
But Kurokawa Jing could clearly feel that her mother was smiling.
"Mom?"
Poof!
The human body fell to the ground from a high altitude, and the sound of smashing into pieces was heard.
Kurokawa walked out of the room tremblingly and walked to the wall.
Her body was too short and she needed to support herself with both hands to see the scene downstairs.
"Mom? Mom? Mom?"
At more than ten floors, she could only see a bloody mess on the ground.
Immediately afterwards.
Yamawaki Takero ran out from the first floor. He was not disgusted and walked to the pile of flesh and blood while vomiting.
He took out something from his wife, Kurokawa Rou.
After that, Yamawaki Takero suddenly raised his head and looked upstairs.
There was no look of pain on his face as his wife had died. He was looking for any witnesses.
Fortunately, Kurokawa Shizu's two small hands could not support her body and look down for too long.
The moment Yamawaki Takero raised his head, he fell back.
She didn't dare to look anymore, and while her expression was still numb, she quickly ran back to the bed and lay down.
Yamawaki Takero came back soon.
He didn't take the elevator, he took the stairs all the way up.
So now the black figure standing in front of Kurokawa Jingfang is breathing hard.
Although Kurokawa Shizu didn't know what happened to her father, she also knew that she couldn't speak out at this time.
Be sure to pretend that you are still sleeping!
Otherwise, I will probably die like my mother!
"Shizuo, wake up, it's morning."
Yamawaki Takero came to the bedside and poked Kurokawa Shizu's cheek.
It was still late at night, but he said it was already morning.
Kurokawa Shizu didn't dare to move, and his body muscles were so tight that he didn't dare to move.
She knew that the instinct of not being able to move might be to protect her.
After Yamawaki Takero tried several more times, he believed that his daughter was asleep before leaving.
But he didn't close the door.
Returning to the computer desk in the living room, he took out a bloody USB flash drive and wiped it before inserting it into the computer.
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Kurokawa Jing covered her mouth and forced herself not to cry.
Tears fell from her eyes. At this time, she was hiding behind the wall and watching Yamawaki Takero operate the computer.
Yamawaki Takero's eyes were focused on the screen, and he did not notice a pair of small eyes peeking behind him.
Later, she fell asleep inexplicably.
When I woke up from bed the next day, I was woken up by Yamawaki Takero.
Two police officers also appeared in her room.
"Dad? Where's mom?" She asked Yamawaki Takero.
Yamawaki Takero's expression was complicated and painful, "Jing, you have to be mentally prepared for what I will talk about later."
"..."
I know.
I already knew it.
It’s not because of me that my mother doesn’t leave my father.
The reason for not escaping was just because she was too weak.
Forgave my father’s domestic violence again and again.
Obviously.
He has his most fatal weakness.
"I am very sorry to inform you, Mr. Yamawaki. Your wife committed suicide, please express my condolences."
"We have a dedicated psychologist to provide counseling for the child..."
The police talked to Yamawaki Takero.
Kurokawa Shizu was beside them and heard very clearly.
Suicide and so on are all fake.
However, because Kurokawa Rou jumped from the roof of the building, her body was shattered.
Those traces of domestic violence...
It’s like they never existed.
"No, Mr. Police, I can provide Xiaojing with psychological counseling. Please give us some space."
Yamawaki Takero hugged Kurokawa Shizu and said to the policeman in front of him said.
"Okay, hey, let's close the team."
They walked out of the door and left. The suicide case of Kurokawa Rou has been solved with the active assistance of Yamawaki Takero. .
As soon as the police left, Yamawaki Takero looked at Kurokawa Shizu, staring at her with strange eyes.
"What's wrong, dad? Where's mom?"
She asked.
But she answered yes.
Yamawaki Takero's fist.
"Your mother abandoned us and ran away. Baby girl, will you abandon your father like this in the future?"
His fists hit the young Kurokawa Shizu like raindrops. whole body.
"Dad...I feel pain..."
Kurokawa Shizu struggled feebly.
"Will you leave? Will you leave dad behind?"
Yamawaki Takero was still asking.
"No...it won't..."
Kurokawa Shizu's nose and mouth were bleeding.
Yamawaki Takero stopped, and suddenly he hugged Kurokawa Shizu and cried bitterly as if he was a different person, apologizing.
"Xiaojing, I'm sorry! I'm sorry, dad shouldn't have hit you. You will forgive dad, right?"
...
Mom goes back.
I naturally took over the responsibility for my father’s domestic violence.
I can no longer remember what my mother looked like. I only remember that there is always a big bear in my memory.
Over the years, no matter how badly my father beat me.
Afterwards, he would burst into tears and apologize to me.
I forgave him while dealing with the wound.
I asked myself why I didn’t report him to the police and save myself from suffering?
Isn’t it possible to escape by yourself or something like that?
Um... no.
Very simple.
Because I don’t have a mother anymore.
So I can’t lose my dad again.
Otherwise I won't be able to live, I don't have the courage to escape alone.
It doesn’t matter even if you are beaten black and blue, betrayed by friends and spread rumors, or misunderstood and separated by the boy you like.
Me and Big Bear.
…
This should obviously continue to be the case.
However, I cannot refuse the hug of the person in front of me.
Wrong, all wrong.
At the desk, Kurokawa Shizu actively threw herself into Xia Chuan's sincere embrace.
Her head was buried very deep, deeper than when she hugged the big bear.
"Jing, will you run away with me?"