Of course Aiwass himself did not keep a diary.
This will make him feel unsafe, as if his heart is being peered into. You will feel this way just by writing it down, even if theoretically no one else will see your diary.
In this case, if Aiwass were asked to write a diary, he would not be able to write the truth.
Just like sharing daily life on social platforms, the shared content has of course been processed, refining the interesting parts, artificially removing the uninteresting elements, and hiding the things that would make you feel ashamed. something. You may even tell lies that you believe and repeat them over and over again in an attempt to modify your memory.
But on the other hand, if you read other people's diaries, Aiwass will feel a sense of aggression.
Peeping is a kind of covert aggression, and it can be accepted with the other person's consent. It is different when you look at the other person's gaze. It feels like peeling off the other person's inner layer in person. This feeling excited Aiwass even more than peeling off his clothes.
Even if the diary is not entirely true, at least you can taste the state of mind when writing the diary. Just like folklore, there is usually some connection with what really happened at that time.
After all, lies are like dreams, psychedelic things that need truth as the fermented grains to ferment out.
Isabel said “you don’t need to read that part”, but she did not explicitly refuse. That’s what I want to see for myself.
From this perspective, perhaps it was not Aiwass who peeled off the first layer, but Isabel herself
Aiwass vaguely felt that Isabel might have been too lonely. For a long time, she desperately hoped that someone could free her from the fear of the past. And that change had better be strong enough.
Because if she is too gentle, she may want to continue to stop there and remain still. Her heart is strong. Because just a little tenderness is enough to heal the heartache caused by staying in the dark.
But that always treats the symptoms rather than the root cause.
If you want to buy, buy permanent fashion, and if you want to bring someone with you, bring it to customs clearance
There is no reason to do things half-heartedly
Unless you are deliberately teasing the other person
And this made Aiwass feel excited for a long time.
But he still suppressed his heart and started from the beginning. If he turned directly to the end, the purpose would be too obvious. Moreover, without the previous foreshadowing, he would not be able to resonate with Isabel and would make her feel disrespected and uncomfortable.
However, Aiwass looked at this "Royal Diary" seriously and quickly got involved.
Because this diary did record a lot of things that he didn't know
"July 3, 1887, sunny."
"If you Seeing these words means I am dead."
Transcribed in elegant and clean writing., is a diary or suicide note left by a seemingly calm man. "Whether it was due to poisoning, disease or curse, eight people in the family have lost their lives in the past seven years. This cannot be an accident in any case."
“In other words, we must be prepared to die at any time. Live each day as if it were your last, and be prepared for the possibility that one day in the future we will all die.
"At that time, no one will speak for us anymore, and we will no longer be speechless. Because the dead cannot speak. Before that, we must leave some evidence to prove that we have been here and that we "I have lived."
"My brothers and sisters, my elders, my children. I hope you won't be too sad when you see these words, and it won't be too late. I have lost my sanity and dignity. From this point of view, I hope I can die sooner.
“I will keep writing my diary until I die. After my death, this diary will be known throughout the Dulac family.
"I hope you can remember that Lancelot's descendants are not cowards and are not afraid of death."
This is the first diary entry at the beginning of this book, and it is also obvious that That's why they keep diaries.
Leave records and proof?
Aiwass was thoughtful.
Although he didn’t know who this person was, he did admire his composure.
The next article is still in his tone, but a lot of content is skipped in the middle. Apparently Isabel copied only the most critical parts.
"September 1, 1887, sunny."
"I may be dying, but I hope you can live well."
And Immediately afterwards, there was the tone of the second person.
He seemed a little anxious.
"September 4th, heavy rain"
"My eldest brother also passed away. He seemed to have died of poison. My mother was also very sad. It rained for three days, and she came to say goodbye to him. "I saw your diary, and I understand what you mean. Knights must have their own dignity."
"Who are you, my lord?" What do you think? Why do you let us endure this kind of suffering?"
And then, it jumped directly to a few months later.
"January 3rd, Rain"
"My Annie is finally gone. She was only eight years old, but this damn curse has tortured her for so long"
< p>"If she really wants to die, she might as well let me die for her. If I can catch the curser, I will peel off his skin and roast him on the fire""Crown Lord, what do you think is this your punishment for us?"
Seeing those words full of despair, Aiwass's fingers moved slightly.
He pursed his dry lips.
This should be the death of the child of the prince or princess who recorded the diary.
His excitement gradually turned dullHe became heavy and frowned slightly.
Just from the diaries of two people, he could feel the resentment and obsession entangled in this book.
At the same time, he looked at the selection of content and realized another thing
If Prince Andrew was the only mole, he should not attack the little girl. . This is more like a traditional curse. According to traditional curses, the curse will attack the weakest person within the curse range. In this case, it is easy for children to get cursed.
That is to say, when Andrew went to find the mastermind behind the scenes to cooperate, the curse had actually been popular for some time
He sat on the chair in front of Isabel's desk and looked at the man standing beside him Behind her, Isabel, who was also looking at the diary, said, "How old were you when you started copying?"
"This is actually the third book. I was nine years old when I copied it for the first time." ."
Isabel's hand gently rested on Aiwass's shoulder, just like Aiwass had put his hand on her shoulder before.
Her Royal Highness the Princess with long golden hair said softly, "Anne is my sister, she is one year younger than me. I remember it very clearly, because that was my first playmate who died in the curse. .
“Before this, I actually didn’t feel much about curses. Even though it happens around me, I always feel that it is something far away from me.
"Until my best friend fell on the hospital bed and kept coughing. The curse she suffered from was chronic. She was cured repeatedly by priests and relapsed, but she couldn't eat. Her body became weaker and weaker, and she finally left us in the middle of the night without calling for help. She must have been tired."
Isabel lowered her eyes and said softly.
Immediately afterwards, Aiwass turned back the diary.
"January 7th, sunny"
"Today is a sunny day, a good day to die."
"January 8, 1889 The day is sunny."
"Princess Valeria committed suicide yesterday, perhaps because she was too sad about the death of the little Princess Anne. This was also the first Dulac to die of suicide after the unknown curse. Family members."
"Some people suggested going to war with Star Antimony or Iris, but my mother dismissed it. She seemed to have her own plan, and I believed her."
"I actually don't want to start a war, because we don't know who our enemy is. The curse may not be permanent, but the harm caused by war to people is permanent"
"I am Herakdu Luck. I will record it all and tell people. I will do my best to record that the Dulac family persisted to the end and never fell."
"July 1, 1889. Sunny. But I hope it's rain."
"Krea is dead. My wife is dead."
"It turns out the curse is not for the Dulac family. But for the entire royal family."
"I was shaken.I was angry and I wanted a war. I knew it would only destroy me and destroy Avalon. But I'd rather have everything ruined but no. I can't do this, Correa said, asking me to stand up for my justice. ”
“Useless justice. "
"Now I just want to protect my little Fili and hope he is okay. "
Aiwass was silent.
Obviously there is no one named "Fili" among the existing royal family members. For him who already knew the result, this story was too much Heavy.
So he paused for a while before turning another page.
“January 1, 1890, rain. "
"Dad is dead. I am Feili, and now I will continue writing for my father. ”
“I want to live, and everyone also wants to live. I want my own gryphon to be as majestic as Uncle Renekton. Destroy all evil and save everyone. "
"1891, April 2. clear. "
"Little Fili is dead. Another one died. When will it arrive for me? I don't know. ”
“It’s a day to live. Today’s bluebells are also beautiful. Like me. "
"Haha, I hope I can die beautifully. If I could, I would put on my most beautiful dress and die quietly among the bluebells. It would be best if it could be painted into a picture. ”
“Will anyone love me after death? Permanent me, if I give myself to you, can I dance with you under the moon?”
“1891 , August 1, sunny. ”
“Today, Chris passed away. It's probably almost my time. "
"His Majesty advised us that those who want to live can leave the Palace of Silver and Tin and abandon the name of Durak, and they may be able to survive. But now, is it really useful? People who really want to kill us, even if we leave here, can we survive?"
"I think the only way to survive is to become a star. Antimony or Iris man. But I choose to reject such an ugly and humble way of living. "
"I hope that you who read this diary will also choose to reject it. But I wouldn’t blame you if you choose to accept it. ”
“Everyone can live rather than die, children. You have the right to live. But I hope you will not betray glory. Betrayal is the worst sin, and losing glory is worse than death. ”
“My lord, I will fight to the end and never give in.” I will hold my head high until the end of glory and life. ”
“My Lord, I will come to you. ”
Those were sonorous and powerful words.
Aiwass took another deep breath, his fingertips trembling slightly.
Diaries of Royal Family Members So far, the rest is Isabel's diary
The first line that opens is "I am so scared"
"Dad said, I can cry"
Just two sentences.
This is the first diary entry left by Isabel.
But just looking at it, Aiwass seemed to see the nine-year-old little girl.
She was so alone, so scared, so vulnerable.
He turned back and looked at Isabel who looked away shyly.
Despite this, there was a shallow, slightly invisible smile on her face. That was the expression he showed when he obviously wanted to laugh but deliberately kept a straight face.
She is no longer afraid.
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