Tieniu couldn't calmly look back at such heartbroken eyes. He quickly turned his head away and said, "I'm sorry."
This apology was said very quickly and was very depressing, as if there was a blockage in the throat. What.
"I don't want to be sorry!" But what it is, Sun Xiuwen can't tell. His sincerity has been wrongly paid.
Tieniu is gone.
"You, bastard!" Sun Xiuwen used up her last strength and roared angrily in Tieniu's direction.
Tian Mingfang saw that Sun Xiuwen was almost unsteady on his feet and seemed to be about to fall to the ground next moment, so he hurried over to help him.
For a moment, she wanted to rush over and give Tieniu a beating. This man deserved to be beaten, and he deserved to be beaten. Even if he was tall and strong, she would fight to break his head and bleed him. She beat him severely, but when she looked at Sun Xiuwen, she looked like a broken paper kite that was about to be blown to pieces by the wind, standing there precariously without anyone touching him.
Tian Mingfang suddenly felt tired and panicked. She had never changed her mind since she discovered how good Sun Xiuwen was, but at this moment she clearly felt lost and disappointed.
She didn’t know how important Tieniu was in Sun Xiuwen’s heart, but at this moment she hated iron and wanted to say something nasty and pour cold water on her. Give it to him until you see him completely awaken.
"Sun Xiuwen, are you stupid? You asked him why, you are angry with him, he knows what sincerity is, he knows nothing! He only has farming and farm work in his heart. In his life, They are all spinning around in this village!" Tian Mingfang shook Sun Xiuwen's arm hard, forced him to face him, and shouted: "If I were you, I wouldn't even ask him for the answer. The answer is that he didn't take you. If he wants to treat you as a friend, he has already fallen out with that stupid sister of his. His parents have never treated you as one of their own, just a guest who comes to give generous gifts! When have they ever considered you? Your sincerity to his family has never been equally reciprocated!
Sun Xiuwen, if you are not blind, just look around you and look at the people around you. Those who are truly sincere to you are all around you. , your friend, your childhood friend, the person who quarrels with you every day, everyone in the Educated Youth Academy hopes for your well-being and cares about you. You shouldn't take such a thing as a brother to your heart again! I heard the word "iron cow" coming out of your mouth, "Let's go home!"
Tian Mingfang's string of words came down like a machine gun, plus the last word "go home" that was misspoken, Sun Xiuwen It suddenly became quiet.
"Home." He murmured in a low voice, regardless of his wrist being held by Tian Mingfang.
Tian Mingfang saw that he didn’t resist, so she mustered up the courage to hold his hand tightly, intertwining her fingers, "Home and dormitory are not the same. The dormitory is your home now, let's go back!"
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She took Sun Xiuwen's hand and pulled him back hard. The energy she had lost just now seemed to have returned. It was already getting late. She had time to spend time here to hurt Tieniu and go back.How many pages can I read? When Sun Xiuwen went back, she went to the kang to read. She cleaned his shoes and asked him to take off today's undershirt and wash it. Thinking about these trivial matters, she became full of motivation.
They turned and left, and at the same time the door of the thatched cottage next to them opened. Meng Layue walked out quietly, looked at the backs of Sun Xiuwen and Tian Mingfang without saying anything, and then turned around and chased Tieniu away.
She believed in Tieniu.
Seeing is believing. A series of conversations between Tieniu and Sun Xiuwen eliminated her doubts. But she did not expect that Sun Xiuwen was such a soft-hearted person. It was just a conflict between friends, but he was Extremely sad.
But I can understand that if it were me, if I knew that the good friend who I thought I was sincerely accompanying was actually fed up with me and didn't like to help me secretly, I would feel hurt.
She is an outspoken person, with both love and hate coming directly. Tieniu talked about everything in person and did things openly. In order to prevent her from misunderstanding, she did not hesitate to offend her friends, so she also Using her own attitude, she completely eliminated the grudge. Instead, she felt a little pity for Sun Xiuwen. Thinking of his last stubborn questions just to get an answer from Tieniu, she felt a little guilty.
Originally, she would not have told Sun Xiuwen those shocking truths...
She said to Tieniu: "I listened to you talking, and he seemed to really take advantage of you. Being a good buddy, I have never had any bad intentions. You and he don’t have to be so quarrelsome. Now I understand the relationship between you and him, and I won’t object to your dealings with him in the future, as long as he treats you sincerely and doesn’t care about you. You."
She also made a concession: "I used to be influenced by Sister Guixiang and thought he was not a good person. Now I have changed my mind. I feel that he is okay and treats you well. You guys. I don’t have any problem with being friends from now on.”
Tieniu shook his head, “My friendship with him was filled with so many selfish thoughts. He didn’t even know it before, but now since Having said it all, I don’t have the shame to be friends with him anymore.”
He didn’t talk much about Sun Xiuwen with La Yue. When he talked too much, Sun Xiuwen’s red eyes appeared in his mind before he finally turned away. He couldn't think about it, as he felt uncomfortable and panicked just thinking about it.
After the play was over and the twelfth lunar month was successfully stabilized, Tieniu breathed a sigh of relief. As long as the twelfth lunar month did not cause trouble, there was nothing Shang Guosheng could do. Now he was not afraid of Shang Guosheng's big-picture rumors. I'm afraid that he will instigate fabrication here in Meng Layue.
On the other side, Sun Xiuwen returned to the dormitory, and Tian Mingfang gave him a novel, "Read Xianshu."
He shook his head, and his mood slowly calmed down: "I don't want to see it anymore. I've made you worry today."
"Don't say this thank you to me. I've been washing your clothes, underwear and socks for almost a month, and I haven't seen you thank me." Me." Tian Mingfang glared at him, but there was a hint of softness in his eyes.
Sun Xiuwen looked at TianMingfang smiled helplessly, but there was no sparkle in her eyes.
When Tian Mingfang mentioned home just now, he suddenly felt homesick. No matter how long he lived here, it was no longer his home. Instead, he felt more and more isolated and fearful.
He looked at Tian Mingfang who was busy wiping tables and sweeping the floor, and wanted to tell Tian Mingfang to stop being busy and persuade her to go back, but he swallowed the words as he was too stubborn to listen. Yes, he also dislikes his corny talk, and now he is afraid of wasting too much time on one thing. He is too lazy to have an emotional confrontation with anyone. Recently, he always forgets the words when he says something, and his thinking seems to be frozen. It seems fluent. He used to be articulate, but recently he has become obviously clumsy. But he is not panicked or anxious at all, because he doesn’t want to speak, export his thoughts, or change others. He is too tired. Today Tieniu’s words made him There was a deep sense of frustration and unworthiness, and he even felt exhausted even if he was alive and doing nothing but breathing.
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But he couldn’t say it, and he didn’t want to say it. No one would understand. Even Song Xiao, who was most sympathetic to him, would not understand and support him. They would only hope that he would be positive and make progress. Don't sit on the kang like a lazy egg all day long. They like the Sun Xiuwen who used to talk and laugh, not the lazy self he is now.
Wang Yuanyuan realized that Sun Xiuwen's condition was serious early the next morning.
She went out for a run in the morning, and when she ran near the entrance of the back mountain, she saw Sun Xiuwen.
It was still early, Tian Mingfang usually got up late, and Sun Xiuwen was indeed not followed by anyone else. He was alone, wearing a maroon shirt and khaki pants with mismatched colors, and the buttons of the shirt The whole button and fork were split, and the hem of the clothes was too long on one side and too short on the other, making it look sloppy.
Wang Yuanyuan stared at him for a while, frowned and called him: "Sun Xiuwen."
Sun Xiuwen turned around, confused, saw it was her, forced a smile, and pointed Pointing to the mountain: "My chest feels tight and my heart feels like it's beating out of my mouth. I'm going up the mountain to get some air."
Wang Yuanyuan saw him like this, walked up and said, "Let's go together, I'll go with you." < /p>
There was obviously some resistance in Sun Xiuwen's eyes, but she still lowered her eyes and nodded, "Okay."
Sun Xiuwen was silent all the way, and she seemed to be a different person.
The two came to a stone platform halfway up the mountain. Sun Xiuwen sat on it. The early morning wind blew his bangs up, revealing his smooth forehead. His brows finally relaxed a little, and he opened his arms and said: "I really envy those birds, they can fly freely in the valley."
He closed his eyes and imagined that he turned into a bird at this moment, flying out freely, but suddenly he felt unmotivated, and Suddenly, I feel that this world is no longer beautiful, everything is so boring, even the place where Chang and Song Xiao come to talk is so boring, it seems good if they just jump off and end it all.
"YouDo you feel like a bad person? "Wang Yuanyuan stood behind him and looked at him.
Sun Xiuwen retracted the posture of stretching her arms, clasping her arms on her back, and said dejectedly: "I used to feel good. I like the writer Hemingway, but it is a pity that he committed suicide in 1961. The first time I came into contact with his works was after I had an argument with Qiao Liyun. I read the book "For Whom the Bell Tolls". I have been reading it over and over since then, and every time I think about the meaning of life. The protagonists of his works are It’s a tough guy image, you know, a few months ago I also forced myself to become a strong tough guy. I also want to be perseverant and move forward courageously. Nothing can defeat me, but it takes all my energy to maintain a tough guy. I’m tired. I don’t want to insist anymore, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. "
As he spoke, his face was filled with tears and he covered his eyes with his hands.
Wang Yuanyuan sat down next to him and said softly: "Hemingway's books are all pessimistic in their emotional expressions. I didn’t expect you to read his book so early. So when did you discover that you had emotional problems? "
"I discovered it very early. Not long after I went to the countryside, I had a tendency to be autistic on the eve of my separation from Qiao Liyun. Later, Tieniu appeared and I became happy again. Now you can see that I Because he left and became weaker than expected, he is no longer as good as you hoped. "
He is a proud man, and he doesn't want to admit it, but the fact is that Tieniu's departure made him heartbroken.
"You really give yourself There’s so much pressure, so what’s wrong with being more vulnerable? So what if he doesn't look like a man? "
Sun Xiu couldn't help crying. He bent his knees and buried his head between his legs, "I really feel that life is meaningless and it is too tiring. "
Wang Yuanyuan didn't know what to do to make him happier. She stood up directly and said, "You should go back to the city. You are in a very bad state now and can't go on like this anymore. Didn't your uncle and aunt keep urging you before? Should I ask you to go back to the city? You might as well go back and change the environment. What do you think? "
She waited for Sun Xiuwen's answer for a long time, but he gave her no response at all. He was just silent, and occasionally a few tears slipped from his fingertips.
Wang Yuanyuanshen Taking a breath, "You reminded me of a word like this, mud can't stick to the wall, imagine your parents..." Her words stopped abruptly.
Feijiu suddenly reminded her in her mind: " Don't persuade him with long explanations. He won't listen. Depression is a complex mental illness. Patients have uncontrollable symptoms of low mood, loss of energy, and no sense of self-worth. He simply doesn't care now. He is unable to accept and understand your principles and suggestions. Changing the environment is the best way. He really should change the environment, take medicine, and have relatives to accompany him. However, taking medicine only treats the symptoms and not the root cause. "
Wang Yuanyuan stopped trying to persuade her. She sat quietly with Sun Xiuwen, feeling unspeakably depressed. In the past, Sun Xiuwen was such a lively and talkative person, but now she was discussing the future with him. Plan, he has even lost the ability to make decisions and can onlyAddicted to pain like a zombie.
If he continued like this, his life would not last long. Wang Yuanyuan did not tell him any more truths. She thought that she would write a letter to Sun's parents tonight to explain his situation.
She didn't care whether Sun Xiuwen was listening or not, and said slowly to herself: "I know you are in pain and weak now, but everything is temporary. When you return to the city and change the environment, Once your mood is relaxed, you will definitely recover after a period of time, really, but you must take action to change first. The most important thing is to go back first. Staying at home does not require you to get up early and go out. You can relieve a lot of fatigue when you don't get enough sleep. At least Now that I can sleep in, I can find something to do and time goes by quickly. Why don’t you just review at home? Didn’t you also think about getting admitted to the University of Washington? Let’s meet up at the University of Washington and I will apply for the Department of Foreign Languages. ”
Wang Yuanyuan always felt that Sun Xiuwen's depressed mood was only temporary and did not meet the criteria for depression. In the original work, Sun Xiuwen was hurt by Qiao Liyun but did not develop into a real depression. She just developed a habit of drinking. , it can be seen that he is rich in inner emotions but lacks reasonable ways to relieve them. He relies too much on external objects to resolve his emotions. In the final analysis, he still lacks inner energy.
Wang Yuanyuan's heart moved, and she quickly asked Feijiu to search for various treatment options. The planet where Feijiu was located was quite advanced in technology and medical treatment, and naturally had no shortage of advanced treatment methods. It told Wang Yuanyuan that there was a kind of cognitive therapy. It cannot 100% cure patients from depression, but it can change a person's state of mind by changing his or her cognitive style in the long term.
Feijiu found a lot of information in just a moment. Wang Yuanyuan planned to take the time to sort it out and send it to Sun's parents after a while.
It was almost noon when they went down the mountain.
Tian Mingfang happened to be in the yard, and was walking around anxiously because she couldn't find Sun Xiuwen. When she saw the two people entering the yard, they hurried over with worry in their eyes.