Lonely?
Niou never thought that one day this word would fall on him, because he seems to have so many friends and countless people who like him.
Whether in school or on the field, wherever he is, there is always applause and cheers, and sometimes he is no worse than Atobe.
Will he be lonely like this?
Niou hung up the phone and looked at Yato.
The so-called loneliness, he has only clearly felt in Yato, but he is different from Yato. He has not lived for hundreds of years, and he has never been forgotten repeatedly like Yato. .
His life was very short. Even if the two lifetimes were put together, it would only last more than thirty years. In these thirty years of life, he was rarely alone. Whenever, There are always others around him, so does the word loneliness really apply to him?
After walking to a bench on the side of the road and sitting down, Nioh lay back along the curve of the back of the chair, closed his eyes, and let himself go.
What is the definition of loneliness? Does it just refer to the state of being alone? Of course not.
Loneliness is a subjective feeling of being incompatible with others; it is a closed state that defaults to alienation from others and society; it is the dilemma of being unable to integrate into the crowd even if you are in a busy city.
But Nioh thinks that his situation does not meet the above definition of loneliness. He has family and friends who care about each other. He enjoys spending time with them, and he never feels that he is out of tune with them. .
In the final analysis, he has too many secrets, and these are things that he cannot share with his companions. He is protecting the people he wants to protect in his own way, but these silent ways make his companions mistakenly believe that the efforts of both parties are not equal.
We have always said that what is under the nose is the mouth. How come the sharp mouth when facing outsiders becomes rusty when facing the people you care about?
Niou hit himself on the head, and then stood up in a daze.
"You adjusted it so quickly?" Yadou, who was standing behind Nioh, said.
"Yes." King Ni nodded, "I want to go to the minister's house again, you don't have to accompany me."
"Okay, let's solve that boy's knot. . ”
“Yeah! ”
Niou turned around and ran to Yukimura’s house, followed the familiar route, climbed over the wall, jumped to the tree, and sat on the side where the diagonal branch came out. On the branch, Yukimura's phone number was dialed.
"Masaharu?"
Yukimura, who was originally feeling depressed because Nioh hung up the phone and didn't get the response he wanted, received this message when he returned to the room to rest. Talk on the phone.
Perhaps it was telepathy. After Yukimura answered the phone, he immediately ran to the balcony again and did not leave.Unexpectedly, he looked at Niou who was sitting in the tree.
"Masaharu?" Yukimura called Niou's name again.
"Yes." Nioh raised his hand and waved to Yukimura. At this time, the Hirosode hanging from his wrist made Nioh realize that he had not changed back to his original appearance. But that’s okay, there are some things that I would be embarrassed to say based on my true appearance, so I might as well just leave it as it is.
"Seichi, before I confess something to you, I would like to refute what you just said."
"Well, you say." Yukimura stared at Niou, Full of tenderness.
"You just said that I take great care of you and bring you all kinds of benefits, but you can't give me anything except care and companionship.
But what I want to say Yes, for me, your company and care are enough. My biggest pursuit in this world is to hope that the people I care about can do what they want to do without any worries.
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I never feel that the efforts between us are unequal. Whenever I see you are satisfied because of improving your strength and getting good things. I am so excited about the results, my heart has been filled with your smiles.
I feel lucky to have met you, proud of my ability to help you, and proud of myself for being able to gain your blessings. Feel happy by caring.
So don’t feel burdened or unfair about everything I do. Just at this moment, I can see you standing there properly, and my heart is already very strong. "I'm satisfied."
"This is the first time I heard you say this to me." Yukimura put his hand lightly on the railing, "Masaharu should try to rely on everyone more in the future. Masaharu is just a little older than Akaya and I. Although he is such a young child, he regards himself as everyone’s parent.”
“Yes,” Niou nodded, “I will. "
"So, my condition has been resolved today, right?"
"Yes, you felt it?"
" Yes, I suddenly felt relaxed and comfortable, and I saw you as soon as I looked up, so I guessed it."
"I didn't expect that I could still fall in love with you after becoming like this. I recognize you."
"Your eyes are very recognizable."
"Okay~ I'll come over wearing sunglasses next time~"
Listen. Nioh's slightly coquettish tone made Yukimura burst into laughter. Nioh looked at Yukimura's rare cheerful smile instead of his usual gentle smile, and the corners of his mouth curved uncontrollably.
"Seichi, do you believe that there is a god in the world?"
"I didn't believe it before," Yukimura looked at Nioh, "Now, I think there is indeed one. ."
"Puri, Seiichi, your eyes seem to treat me as a god," Nioh smiled and rolled up the long hair on his chest, "But I am really not a god~ However, your illness is indeed a god who helps you. solved. "
"Oh? god? "
"Yes, his name is Yadou. He is a very special god. So far, everyone who has seen him except me will forget him. I don't know if you will forget it as usual if I tell you his name in this way, but I still have to tell you that it was Yadou God who saved you. "
"Okay, I will write this in the diary. Even if my brain really forgets the name uncontrollably, the diary will not forget it. "
"Well, in addition, about me... some things are our rules. If one day you see the truth, I can choose to tell you everything. But before that, Jingshi, please think of me as an ordinary but somewhat magical magician, and everything that cannot be explained by common sense is just a magic, how about it? "
"Okay," Yukimura nodded in agreement, "I won't delve into the secrets and truth, but Masaharu, if there are similar things in the future, such as who will get sick, what will happen where, etc. Yes, you can tell me directly. As long as it is what you say, I will believe it and never ask why. Is this okay? "
"You have said so, how could I refuse. Niou raised his head and glanced at the lush green leaves on the tree crown, "Jingshi, you didn't see cherry blossoms on that day in late February, right?" "
"Huh? "Yukimura simply uttered a syllable, and felt his breath stagnant, because he saw that the originally green branches and leaves of the big tree in his yard were instantly submerged in pink, and the cherry blossoms were blooming, and the petals were flying in the sky. Pieces are falling from nowhere.
"Although they are all illusions woven by spiritual power, Jingshi, this is proof of my promise to you. "
Yukimura raised his hand and took a petal into his palm.
These non-existent things should obviously not bring any weight, but Yukimura felt that the palm of his hand was heavy.
“I will accept your promise. ”