I accompanied Chu Yue to the health center for a re-examination. Following the doctor's instructions, I went to the window where I bought health care drugs. After handing the order written by the doctor to a little nurse in the window, the little nurse looked at it carefully. Looking at the list in his hand, he said: "Sir, here is a total of three thousand and eighty yuan."
I was surprised. When the words of the little nurse through the mask reached my ears, they were already subtle, but Suddenly, the sound amplified infinitely, deafening. I complained about the rubbish health products that cost 3,800 yuan. I approached the window and said, "Are you mistaken? These health products of yours are not medicines. If they are so expensive, do you get a rebate?"
The little nurse ignored my anger, glanced at me disdainfully, pointed at a middle-aged man carrying two large bags of health care products in the window next door and said, "Look at everyone, they are all fourth." This time, if you have the financial ability, you can buy as much as you want. Every time a girl gets pregnant, she has to have an abortion. Look at how poor you are. If you don’t have money, don’t have an abortion.”
I looked at the back of the middle-aged uncle as he left, and sneered: "I don't even know that this guy is so stupid. He will definitely be involved in a pyramid scheme when he gets old, and his family will be destroyed suddenly."
I complained, and then watched the little nurse filling the bags with health products. I also started to worry about money. I walked further away, picked up the phone and dialed Yu Qing’s mobile number. I looked at Chu Yue Sitting on the bench on the first floor of the health center, looking at the floor in a daze, she noticed me looking at her, immediately straightened her sitting posture, then smiled and waved from me.
After the phone rang for a few seconds, Yu Qing answered the call. I got straight to the point and highlighted the key points. "Yu Qing, brother, you are in trouble now. I will borrow four thousand yuan and I will pay you back after your salary is paid next month."
Yu Qing was silent for a while on the other end of the phone and said in a surprised tone: "Xiangyang, why did you borrow four thousand yuan? Did you fight again? Or did you gamble?! Do you need me to come over?"
I didn't reply immediately, and said in a calm tone: "You see my brother When did I ever gamble? I just borrowed money this time to help a friend of mine. Something happened to her now."
"Okay, I'll transfer it to you, please be careful and don't be deceived. Now, there are everyone outside..."
Yu Qing really acted like my dad, I interrupted him impatiently, "I know, just hang up now "
I hung up the phone, received the four thousand yuan transferred from Yu Qing, paid for the health care products, and walked towards the exit with Chu Yue carrying two large bags of health care products. At this moment, there were other men coming to the payment window behind me. After a while, I heard laughter. I suddenly felt that I was like the Kaizi I just said. I was shooting myself in the foot. It hurt. It's always me.
After walking out of the door, what came into view was the bench and electric lamp from three days ago. Chu Yue walked out of the door and started to trot like a childish child, with a smile on her face. smile,"Xiangyang, look, the light has been repaired."
She pointed to the light on the bench. It was indeed repaired. It was brighter and brand new than before. I lit a cigarette. , holding a cigarette and two bags of health care products, walked towards Chu Yue, "Can't you just wait for me."
"No."
Chu Yue smiled playfully, Seeing me chasing after him, he distanced himself even more unscrupulously from me. After walking for a while, he sat down on the bench, leaving a place for me, and then greeted me with a smile. I sat down, and then Panting, she looked at Chu Yue angrily and said, "You little girl, you run so damn fast. Do you look weak after the abortion?"
I took a deep breath of cigarette to relieve the pressure. She smiled and took out a small glass bottle from her pocket.
"Deng Deng, look what this is."
Chu Yue faced me with a tone of surprise. The bright smile on her face seemed to remind me of what I just said. All the fatigue was driven away.
I took the bottle and saw the fireflies locked inside at a glance. Several fireflies were flickering with subtle light, looking for an exit. However, under the illumination of the electric light, their light was simply Not worth mentioning. Just like comparing a coin to a big bill, it seems insignificant.
"Where did you catch it?"
I asked curiously, because in this era of rapid development, fireflies are very rare and extremely rare. You may not even be able to find a group of people in rural areas now. These are precious and rare memories of childhood.
Chu Yue looked proud, smiled and joked: "You don't have to worry about this. I have super powers. Catching a few fireflies is just a piece of cake. To be honest, in fact, I have super powers." The lady is a happy star who fell from the sky in order to become the happiest person in the world."
I was a little amused, but I didn't expect that she actually had a childish playground in her heart. This childish playground usually only appears in the hearts of simple children. Their yearning for the playground is unparalleled. However, it will gradually be forgotten as time goes by. This playground is destined to be abandoned and destined to be abandoned. It was replaced by other things, but Chu Yue still maintained her virginity, which was very novel.
I pinched her and said teasingly: "I gave you a smile and you put it on."
"Ouch, it hurts."
I didn't use much strength at all, and I felt that Chu Yue was having a stress reaction.
I let go. At this moment, I felt extremely happy and had a sweet taste. There is a feeling of picking up something lost in the long river of time. It is an emotion of regaining something.
She looked aggrieved and hit me on the shoulder with her little fist, "Bad guy! This hurts me, I'm going to hit you!"
Chu Yue He said he wanted to be beaten, in fact, she was hammering feebly, and could not feel any pain at all. This was her unique tenderness, her unique way of activating the atmosphere, her unique way of cultivating feelings. I took away the cigarette and resisted it with one hand. , the smile on his face never stopped, "Okay, okay, if you hit me again, I will die. Happy star in the sky, I don't dare to provoke you anymore, please be noble and let me go."
I prayed, but she stopped and said with an arrogant look: "This is what you begged me for, I am not heartless."
We looked at each other and smiled, and I kind of liked it. I keep accepting her childishness, and if I am interested in her jokes, I will follow them. If she wants to act, I will cooperate. If she wants to pretend, let her pretend. The grievances between us are like The initially unpleasant and sad place has been resolved. At this moment, we seem to be freed from the shackles of the hustle and bustle of the city. In this quiet place, we can express our inner thoughts and express our feelings to each other, taking off the hypocritical mask and revealing the mask. That big smile in the back.
Tired of laughing, she leaned on my shoulder, and I sat here quietly, letting her do whatever she wanted. She held the small glass bottle in her hand and kept looking at them. Then she uncorked the bottle and released the fireflies inside. They hugged each other and flew towards the darkness. They would not stay under the electric light. Because they don't need this false light, they are light, the light in the dark night, guiding those who are lost in the night.
I'm very curious about why Chu Yue did this, she was obviously very reluctant to leave. So he asked: "Why did you let them go?"
Chu Yue corked the bottle, put it on the bench, and said: "Because they don't belong here, they belong to the night, the silence. In the dark night when people disturb them, they will only lose their own light in this bustling city, and then become puppets bound by the city."
I nodded and acquiesced to her statement. The scent of shampoo was exuding, and it smelled good. I said, "Do you like fireflies very much?"
"Well, I always wanted to when I was a child, because they never came close to me, and I could only look at them. You can't touch them. I like them. The book says fireflies are the best. They light up the night and make it less scary. Their light makes people feel warm. It seems that following them, people who are lost will be on the right track. . ”
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She suddenly sat upright and took out a piece of paper and a pen from her bag. She was very serious and wrote something quickly on it. I wanted to see it. She suddenly put the paper Covering it, he waved his hand to signal me not to peek.
The night is getting darker and darker. Under the illumination of the electric light, the two of us seem to have become the only living things nearby. At this moment, I can’t help but look up. Those moths yearning for light are no longer lingering around the electric light. Maybe They also realized that this was not the electric light they had missed.
Chu Yue finished writing, but folded the paperHe folded it and stuffed it back into the bag, "Xiang Yang, let's go." Then he picked up the bag and walked towards the night. I hurriedly picked up two bags of health care products, followed her, and asked, "Chu Yue, why did you leave?" I was curious why she put the paper away and didn't let me read it, so what secrets were written on it? Is it graffiti? Or do you feel shameful?
Chu Yue said calmly: "Xiang Yang, I want to go home, please give me a ride."
I looked at the time and it was indeed a bit late. Carrying two bags of health care products and walking alone on the dark road, I always felt that something might happen. I answered and accompanied her back to the gate of the community.
She took the two bags of health care products from my hand, then smiled at me and said, "Xiang Yang, I may be returning to Suzhou in a few days."
I was stunned. , she wants to leave? Why leave? Obviously life has just gotten better, and I am about to leave if there is a good sign, but then I think about it, I am not able to control other people's freedom. I will not interfere with other people's choices, but I have the right to be curious. I can ask.
"Why do you... why do you suddenly want to go back?"
I looked at her smiling face, and I was a little confused. Why did she come back when we were leaving? Will you laugh?
“I actually wanted to leave a month ago...I don’t want to stay in this city anymore. I miss my parents, I miss my hometown, I want to go back... ····But after I met you, I postponed the date. The reason why I said it now is because I have noticed your intentions. I want to go home to develop, and come back to you when I am successful. ”
I lowered my head, sighed, and replied lightly, "Yeah."
Chu Yue put down the two bags of health care products and took out the piece of paper on the bench from the bag. , handed it to me and said: "Although there have been some unpleasantness between us, you are also the person I have relied on, and the grudge between us has also collapsed at this moment."
I took the paper , and then looked at Chu Yue, looking forward to her next words.
"I hope you can come and see me off on the day I leave."
"Okay, I promise you."
Chu Yue smiled at me I smiled, picked up two bags of health care products, and walked towards the door of the community. Suddenly there was an emptiness in my chest. I didn’t know how to express it or how to entertain myself. I smoked a cigarette and felt that my hands The paper on it lost its original mystery the moment Chu Yue left. It felt like an ordinary piece of paper. I finally spread out the paper.
It says in black and white: "Xiang Yang, you are the firefly in my heart, you give me warmth. Although I can't touch you, I still like you very much."
Me I smiled, this silly little girl is really good at flirting, she was still so romantic before we left, this is incredible, I took off my cigarette and blew out a puff of smoke on the paper, lettingThose words were faintly visible, and underneath the words there was Chu Yue’s contact information, and a short sentence: “Keep in touch.”
I put away the paper, turned around and walked towards the darkness... ···I won’t be afraid this time, because I am cared about by others······
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I am urged by Yu Qing Back at the company, late at night, I still couldn't escape the fate of being forced to work overtime. I was waiting for Yu Qing to come down from the company at the gate on the first floor. Soon, he walked down with a tired look on his face, and I walked up. I handed him a cigarette, and he hammered my shoulder and said, "You are so filial, you are so exhausted."
He and I sat on the edge of the green belt, smoking. It was pitch dark downstairs in the company, with only two burning cigarettes illuminating the warmth of this small area. We were afraid even at night and did not dare to cover up the erosion, which made us even more fearless.
"Gu Wei, how is she now?"
I suddenly asked this question. This is not my style. I will not ask anything about Gu Wei. , I'm afraid I'll hurt myself, but I won't do it this time. Yu Qing took a puff of cigarette, exhaled the smoke, and said calmly: "Cheng Cheng told me that she would fly back to China in early June."
I nodded and didn't ask any more questions.
"However, I also learned the news that Jiang Shewen is also in the United States and has returned to the country these days."
I suddenly felt something bad at this moment. It feels like a love rival. Jiang Shewen is my roommate in the university dormitory. Like me, he was one of the first people to pursue Gu Wei. However, Gu Wei chose me in the end. At that time, he congratulated me and Gu in advance. Gu Wei has been in love for a long time, and then showed an expression of no interest in Gu Wei. This time when he came back from the United States, it reminded me of some bad things. For the first time, I felt that what I had lost was about to be lost. once.
Yu Qing patted me on the shoulder, comforted me and said, "Xiang Yang, I also think it's unlikely. Maybe we've all thought too much. I heard that this guy Jiang Shewen was raped by his father. I just rushed to the United States to do business. I recently returned to China earlier than Gu Wei, and I should be staying in my hometown in Guangdong."
I think about it carefully, it is indeed unlikely, maybe I am overthinking it. I also know Gu Wei's temperament. He and Jiang Shewen have three different characters in their horoscopes, and Jiang Shewen doesn't have the guts to do it, and he won't attract Gu Wei's attention. Gu Wei has always been aloof, except in Expressing one's inner feelings in front of people whom one considers close to oneself is a code of aloofness in the eyes of outsiders.
I smoked out the cigarette, threw it on the ground and stepped on it a few times, then walked towards the company, "Just smoke slowly by yourself, I'll go up and work overtime first."
"Xiang Yang, don't think too much, work hard, I'm behind you!"
Yu Qing also put out the cigarette and said to me, I stretched out my hand and made an OK gesture, completely After reassuring him, I walked up the stairs. I was still a little melancholy. Why did Jiang SheHow could it be such a coincidence that Wen suddenly appeared? I'm a little scared, I'm afraid that my former love will be taken away by others, I'm afraid that I can no longer keep her, I'm afraid of being forgotten, I'm afraid of becoming that toy that is thrown away at will, I'm afraid of all the possibilities, I'm afraid that there is no chance I'm afraid of an accurate answer, even if it's only one percent or one thousandth. I'm afraid of forgetting. I'm afraid that I'm the only one left in the world. I'm afraid that the faith I rely on suddenly collapses. I'm afraid that my The world is suddenly covered with a layer of gray. I am afraid that my world will no longer have color. I am afraid that my ideal will no longer be realized. I am afraid... I am really afraid.
So I lit up a cigarette...
But suddenly I felt that the dark night was a bit scary. Even sitting in the brightly lit office, I felt that Being polluted, the oasis of pure land in my heart begins to wither, or else it will dissipate.