That night, I lay awake all night, tossing and turning on the sofa. Not only was the summer heat bothering me, but also the mosquitoes attracted by the wide open balcony. The cicadas chirping outside stimulated me, and the mosquitoes on my arms Bao, there was an itching sensation.
I covered my head with a blanket, wrapped myself up, and spent the night with my eyes closed. Before dawn, I got up and tidied up. I walked lightly to the door frame of the room and pushed the door open. Opening the door, I saw Gu Wei still lying on the bed, sleeping soundly and soundly.
I came to the balcony. The sky outside was pitch black, with only a hint of fish belly white in the distance. The air was humid, as if a heavy rain was about to come.
After I washed up, I went downstairs to buy vegetables. There was a market not far away. The people there had already prepared things. I asked for a pound of pork and some vegetables, and bought a small bag. Mi, I went back to the rental house and made a pot of pork porridge, which was delicious.
It was raining outside at this moment, dripping.
The potted plants on the balcony were watered by the rain, so I didn’t have to bother. The porridge still needed to be cooked for a while. I took out the cigarette case in my pocket and looked at it carefully. If I wanted to smoke, I had to restrain myself. , without lollipops, I really can’t find a substitute for cigarettes.
I know what I do, just to quench my thirst by looking at the plum blossoms. I actually don’t have much of a craving for cigarettes, but sometimes my mouth is itchy and I want to hold something in my mouth, so I just smoke a cigarette.
I took back my cigarette case and lay on the sofa, dazed. A yawn pulled my eyes back. Gu Wei walked out of the room. Her hair was messy and her clothes were not neat. , she glanced at me, our eyes met, and I said: "Go and wash up, prepare breakfast, stay for breakfast."
She did not move, still looking at me, She said, "Is your face okay?"
I followed her words, touched my face, and shook my head, "It's okay."
She lowered her head slightly, holding her hands Pulling the corner of his clothes, he said shyly: "Then what happened last night..."
"I didn't do anything like that. Don't worry, I slept in the living room. "
I turned my head and stopped looking at her.
She said oh, returned to the room, and took out a set of women's clothes. These were the clothes she bought when she lived with her three years ago. She held the clothes and walked in calmly. In the bathroom, soon there was the sound of water and the smell of shampoo.
I got up and served the porridge, put an extra pair of bowls and chopsticks on the table, and started eating by myself. She finished her bath and sat down with her long, moist hair. I picked up the bowl and took a sip of porridge, and said with some aftertaste: "It's been a long time since I've eaten the pork porridge you made. It's been such a long time. I really miss this taste."
I trembled in my heart and lowered my head. I took a sip of porridge to cover up my panic. I felt a little distressed and a little melancholy. We had been apart for so long over the years and we had all changed. We had become strangers and we had become strangers.I was at a loss in the end, but perhaps the only thing that remained unchanged was my craftsmanship.
It was still raining outside the balcony. The sky was very gray and there were not many clouds. The rain was dripping on the balcony, forming a puddle. The raindrops falling into the puddle made ripples.
The pot of pork porridge on the table was wafting with heat, dispelling the coldness brought by the rain.
Gu Wei quickly finished the bowl, stood up with the bowl, and served herself more porridge. At this moment, her eyes fell on my wrist, the unfamiliar watch, and she hesitated. , even in disbelief, she took a sip of porridge to hide her inner feelings. Frustration and loss seeped out of her temperament.
People’s micro-expressions cannot be hidden. No matter how hard you try to cover yourself up, there will always be clues. I was surprised and helpless. It all happened so fast. From the sadness at the wedding, The joy in the middle of the night is all in the same time period.
"How long will you stay in Shanghai this time?"
She asked calmly. I thought for a while, looked at some simple luggage in the living room, and said, "Maybe today I'll leave later, maybe tomorrow morning."
She didn't say anything else. After breakfast, she washed her dishes and returned to the room to tidy up her clothes. I thought she would just leave, but she didn't. She thought about it but relied on me. She sat on the sofa and took out her mobile phone to browse.
I sorted out the dishes and put them in the thermos cabinet, clapped my hands, and then returned to the room to pack my clothes. I packed them all into the suitcase, folding them one by one, including some in the drawer. The odd money, as for the few cartons of cigarettes, just keep them all here and take them back to Suzhou to my father-in-law. He will most likely not like them.
For Yu Qing, Cheng Cheng is not allowed to point at my nose and scold me, but for Chen Zhen, he can’t get used to it.
Gu Wei walked in quietly, leaned against the door frame, folded her hands on her chest, and stared at me intently.
I took out the custom-made lipstick from the drawer, handed it to her, and asked, "Do you still want it?"
She was startled, but after she realized what she was doing, she left. She stepped forward and took the lipstick from my hand. Her eyes were full of emotion and expectation, but then turned into regret and disappointment. She carefully handed the lipstick back and said coldly: "No need. ”
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The anticipation and emotion just now are like the bright fireworks in the night, fleeting, like the shooting stars in life, fleeting.
She walked out of the room. I looked down at the lipstick lying in my palm, and couldn't help but sigh, with a sad look on my face.
Gu Wei, who used to be happy and exuding charming temperament, walked hand in hand with me in the sunset, took notes with me in the classroom, and celebrated the opening and end of the school sports meeting with me, I don’t know at this moment. Whereabouts.
It seems that Gu Wei, who came back from overseas, is a fake. Only at the first sight can I find her in my heart.When the sun, which has been silent for a long time, slowly rises again, our first glance brings only hot tears, but if it hangs for a long time, we will notice the difference.
I haven’t seen her smile in a long time.
In all the encounters we had after returning to Shanghai, I seemed to only see her silence and tears. This reminded me of the past, and the way she cried triggered my emotions.
Those three and a half years of wonderful time were like a sweet dream that lasted a little longer, a very long and short dream, so beautiful that I thought it was a sweet dream, but I woke up suddenly in the middle of it, In the process with no ending, I seemed to have foreseen the ending. I wanted to do it again to make up for my shortcomings, but I could never have such a familiar dream again.
Beautiful moments are accompanied by the price of an empty life. There is only one condition for a person to mature. Give him an unforgettable love and then abandon him ruthlessly. This is the last step. Direct approach.
So far I have learned to smoke, and to touch the most mature things at the mature age.
When I was a child, I was obsessed with cartoon animation, eating lollipops, and spicy noodles. This was my most virginal period. When I was a teenager, I was obsessed with games, loved competitions, and the rewards brought by winning. Joy, but also being manipulated by emotions. This was my purest period. When I was young, I would fight and show off, and do things that I thought were very prestigious. I was no longer manipulated by emotions, but was replaced by the environment I was in. This is My most energetic period.
I am very glad that I have come this far. I have met many people of all kinds and gained love and friendship. Although I failed a lot, I have also matured a lot.
My nose felt sour when I thought of this. I put away the lipstick, put it in my pocket, and continued to pack my luggage.
I don’t know how she will feel when she sees the lipstick she abandoned again. Will she have a sour nose like me?
The sound of rain outside gradually disappeared. I looked at my empty room with all kinds of thoughts in my heart.
After I walked out of the room, Gu Wei stood on the balcony, carefully playing with the two potted plants that had never seen any seedlings. She realized that I was coming, but did not look back.
"I bought these two potted plants. They haven't bloomed for so long. Didn't you even water them? They all died in the soil."
She Said, I looked indifferent, sat on the sofa, turned sideways and said: "Do you still remember what flowers you bought?"
"A rose, a red rose, A white rose."
I was stunned for a while and was speechless.
She put down the potted plant and walked slowly into the living room, looking around at everything, "Hey, I really miss this room. Many of our memories are stored here, including bitter love and hard work. There are also small fights between laughter and laughter."
I followed her gaze.Looking around at everything familiar, even if she was so sentimental, it would not have any effect on preventing me from leaving. What use are memories? As a meal? The moment Gu Wei left, the meaning of this house's existence was gone.
It has become no longer so important. It has lost its life. It cannot turn on a bright light for me in the dark night, nor can it prepare a bowl of brown sugar water for me when I am drunk. , how many times I fell drunk on the ground without a familiar blanket covering me.
When a familiarity begins to fall apart, it cannot be made up for. Once you have suffered once, you will not try again. If you have been hurt once, you will not make the same mistakes again. If you have learned from the past, there will be a gap in your heart.
Love can also become rotten.
Gu Wei was in front of me, and I felt very uncomfortable. Her appearance in my memory became clearer and clearer, but it was this clarity that made me feel strange. She was replacing the person she used to be. The girl who was full of smiles and always supported me began to disappear and was replaced invisibly.
I couldn't accept all this. After leaving a spare key on the table, I got up and left. After walking out of the door, I ran quickly towards the outside of the rental house without looking back, wherever I went. Okay, I just don't want to be here.
I wanted to run away. It had just rained outside and there were puddles on the road. I didn’t have any worries. I ran all the way. Even if my trousers got wet from the splashing water, I didn’t care.