I leaned against the guardrail of the moat, looking at the wide river surface and the willows on the other side, which made my heart calm. I held the bottle of wine in my hand and strolled along the moat.
I looked around. Book friends from all over the world gathered together. Some lit cigarettes and some looked at the river. I eagerly hoped to find Duan Xunxun in the crowd. As a book lover, he had no reason not to come. .
Compared with Jerusalem in the West, this is the holy land of Christianity. The moat in Suzhou is a replica of the East and a holy place for book lovers.
I was tired, so I sat on a step, carefully putting the wine aside, holding a lollipop in my mouth, and looked up at the gray sky and the sun blocked by clouds.
I can't feel a trace of light, my heart is very calm, unexpectedly calm, as if frozen, without vitality, even the hot blood flowing through it cannot melt the ice and snow.
I was exaggerated by the nostalgic bar, and I was infected with sadness and sadness that did not belong to this era. My emotions were arranged subtly, and my heart accepted and tolerated the emotions of the last century. , the kind that is independent of the world and lets go of all assumptions.
Desire is hidden, there is no sun, no faith, only pure thoughts. The world appears in black and white, but it is wrapped in a layer of night that does not belong to the color of the world. There is no trace of blood in the lonely city. Both sides of the street Of the flowers in full bloom, none can last until spring. At this moment, I already know that my world has begun to snow...
I sighed and looked back, my eyes At the end is the street lamp, which is where Chu Yue and I stayed. The position under the buttocks is the position of the man the day before yesterday. I accidentally thought of the happy appearance of their family of three.
I am a little envious, even jealous. I don’t know how bumpy my future will be, and I may even leave Suzhou. I have thought through the worst plans and the best plans.
Every time I think about it, I am frightened and very painful. Once these thoughts are born, they cannot be forgotten. They will be engraved in the depths of memory like poison. Daily life will not intrude, but once they leave, Once you reach the ending of a certain moment, these sorrows that have been imagined will emerge and give you the final blow.
I stopped looking back and locked my eyes on the moat, blowing the breeze, alone, in a daze, emptying my mind, just sitting like this, alone... The city...a bottle of wine...a river...is a lifelong concern, pouring your negative emotions into the river.
As the eyes flow towards the distance, this may be the final relief. There is the Suzhou River in Shanghai and the moat in Suzhou. They are all my current concerns. The moat is my substitute. It can never be compared with Suzhou River, and the same goes for people.
Every place has its own customs. If I don’t appreciate them, it’s my incomprehensible style.Affection.
As dusk approached, I sat down until my butt felt numb. I looked at the watch on my wrist. It was almost time. It was time to pick up Chu Yue from work...
Back home , Chu Yue rested for a while, then ran to the kitchen to cook. She wouldn't let me enter the kitchen, saying that the kitchen is a woman's world, and men should conquer the country, guide the troops, and leave the rear to women.
I let her do this. I stayed in Suzhou for a long time. Huang Wentong asked me to go back to the company to complete the resignation procedures after the trip. This matter has been delayed. I should find a time to go back. In Shanghai, I checked out my house, checked my luggage, and said goodbye to my friends, completely burying the youth I left behind in Shanghai.
While eating, Chu Yue chatted with me about games.
"Xiang Yang, how many years have you been playing this game? It feels like this game is very important to you. Although you rarely play it, it is still saved in your phone."
Chu Yue brought me some food.
"I have been playing this game for six years, and I started playing it when I was in college."
"Oh~ six years can be considered a person's youth."
Chu Yue felt a little surprised. She lowered her head to eat the food. She lifted her hair from her cheeks to avoid being stained with oil. She was very elegant and like a lady. I don’t understand what I did to save the earth in my previous life. It is because of this that I met a woman who loves me so much in this life.
My eyes fell on her body, and I couldn't leave her for a long time. I wanted to go forward and hug her, and take her completely as my own.
I restrained my desires. Chu Yue also had her own consciousness. I did this for my own selfish gain and it was not worth it.
Chu Yue also noticed my gaze. She raised her head and stared at me, smiling at me, "Xiang Yang, what are you looking at? Are you so fascinated?"
< p> "Well, I'm looking at you. I'm fascinated by you. You're very beautiful. Even the banks of the Seine are not as romantic as you."I answered truthfully and honestly, confessing my heart. She was startled at first, and then She kicked me and said, "Oh, you know how to tease me. I'm not as beautiful as you said."
She became shy, put down the bowls and chopsticks, straightened her bangs and clothes, and looked upright. Sitting, I was a little confused as to why she was doing this, but I didn't say anything.
"Xiang Yang, I have a weekend off tomorrow, do you have any plans?"
Chu Yue asked me for my opinion. I thought about it, but I didn’t know where I wanted to go. After staying in Suzhou for a while, I can slowly adapt to it. I will definitely take Chu Yue to play on the weekends.
"Yes, but I have to keep it a secret first. I can't tell you in advance."
I deliberately showed off a trick to confuse Chu Yue. She looked slightly excited and started to look forward to it. .
After dinner, Chu Yue and I held hands, and she leaned gently on my arm. We did not go to the moat, but to the lively shopping mall in the center of Suzhou.On the street, I met an Internet cafe, so I walked in with Chu Yue and turned on two machines. Tonight I want to play games, abandon the tired worldly package, and live in this small Internet cafe with my beloved woman.
She turned on the machine but did not play the game. She even stayed on the console page. She held her chin and looked at me playing the game with a smile. I put on my headphones, opened my favorite cSGo, and opened a game. Hand, teammates tender vegetables.
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"Purple, you use a knife to scratch his butt. If you kill him, you can get more than a thousand yuan... Go steal the bag. There is no one on the other side to watch, so steal the bag." ······”
I stared at the computer screen intently and did not notice Chu Yue beside me.
"Quick, get back to defense, come to point A. The four gangsters on the opposite side are coming to point A to steal money..."
"Give me a sniper Hey, boss, you can also be a bird sniper. I got a good weapon and I can hit the opponent with teeth in minutes..."
"Stand still, yellow, don't play with me. You are so broken. Put down your so-called faith and pick up the big sniper on the ground. If you can't do it, just save your gun. Give me the big sniper and I will call you a bison..."
"Hey, buddy, are you kidding about your marksmanship? Can you make it a little better? How about repairing the leather for the opponent? You might as well play a stun gun as a corner war god and give me your AK..."
"Everyone, listen to me. We are two games short of match point. We can no longer send heads to the opponent to brush Kd. In the pistol game, let's python b point, seal the smoke to open the way, and hide after getting the bag. We are stuck in time. At the end It took more than ten seconds to throw it on fire. I don’t believe that the police on the other side bought pliers at the beginning...”
I don’t know how much time passed, but I asked the network administrator to bring me a bottle of drink, and the network administrator will He put the drink on my table, looked at me a few times, and then patted me who was focused on grabbing a spot, "Brother, please keep your voice down, your girlfriend is asleep, don't disturb her, take her home." Go to sleep, you will catch a cold with the air conditioner blowing on here."
The network administrator reminded me of his kind words, and I was immediately killed after hearing this. I regretted my distraction just now, and I turned my head to look. Xiang Chuyue, she was lying on the table, sleeping peacefully facing me. I took off my headphones. For a moment, the private room was silent, and I could only hear Chu Yue's breathing.
The machine she turned on never moved. I frowned slightly, touched by this scene. She stayed with me without any regrets, even if she did nothing, she would not leave.
The network administrator left, and I immediately got off the computer. I didn’t care about winning the rest of the game, and left the Internet cafe with Chu Yue on my back. The regret I just felt in the private room disappeared, and I just wanted to let go. Chu Yue could lie on the bed at home and let her sleep comfortably. I couldn't help but speed up my pace.
The bumps along the way woke Chu Yue up. She lay on my back and looked at me in disbelief, who was a little tired, "Xiang Yang... We weren't on the Internet just now.Coffee? Why are you outside? "
She asked in a daze. She hadn't woken up yet and hadn't opened her eyes. I explained to her: "You fell asleep in the Internet cafe. I'll carry you home. We won't play. It’s time to play games. Let’s go home and sleep. Playing games is not as real as sleeping with a woman in your arms. "
I smiled, and Chu Yue leaned her head on my back, with a soft voice, and said softly: "Okay..."
She was fascinated. She fell asleep in a daze, her silk hair stuck to the sweat on my neck and itched a little. Her breathing echoed one after another in my ears, very light and soft, and her hands swayed feebly in my field of vision. The fingers are long and white, and there is not a trace of dirt on the nails.
Facing the darkness and walking towards the dim lights that belong to us, the moths that once repaid each other with grudges are becoming clearer. Dark, the winged bird flying in the sky, lives and dies.
When she was approaching home, she woke up again. She gently put her arms around my neck and put her face close to mine, "Xiangyang." ······You are so considerate. You actually took me home. You are also very strong and carried me all the way without any complaints. "
She giggled. I actually complained. My back was soaked, my chest was dripping with sweat, and even my forehead was covered with sweat beads. I just endured the pain and didn't want to wake up Chu Yue.
“How can there be no complaints? But for you, I am willing to endure no matter how hard or tiring it is. "
I gritted my teeth and endured the heat. My body was on the verge of collapse. We walked for a long time. Chu Yue was very happy and said: "Xiang Yang... you know why I download Game? "
I shook my head, expressing my ignorance.
"I want to chat with you on a common topic. I will play your favorite games, study skills hard, and challenge you in a duel. Being able to match your opponent will help you have company and not feel bored. When you go home after get off work, it will be nice to have someone to play a few games with you to relieve the fatigue of the day. "
Chu Yue confessed her feelings. I nodded and agreed with her idea.
"Xiangyang, can you sing Jay Chou's "All the Way North" for me? The tune? "
Chu Yue asked softly. I said yes and hummed the tune. Chu Yue sang along: "The world in the rearview mirror, farewell getting further and further away, you turned your back and turned your face sideways. It’s still beautiful, I chased it with my eyes, and I heard your tears lingering outside the car window. It was the opportunity I missed. Where you stood, there were tears between me. The street scene kept receding, and your collapse was outside the window. Bits and pieces, I went all the way north..."
Her voice is very beautiful. She likes Jay Chou and every song of his. I admit that Jay Chou is not just a singer, he is an era. The symbol is the symbol of the era of romance, love and no regrets.
He can represent that he can grow old and even be unable to sing, but his status is still very high., is the lost youth, is the lost love, in his songs, I seem to see the past.
This may be the reason why Chu Yue likes him, not because of the person, but because of the artistic conception expressed in his songs, which expresses that young love.
The singing resonates with our hearts and stirs up reverberations. Like this song, I go all the way north...
I get home, take a shower, and finally end the day. I started to feel sleepy because of the bitterness. As soon as I lay down, I fell into a deep sleep with Chu Yue in my arms...
Before falling asleep, I felt Chu Yue's embrace, and she hugged me. , the foot is hooked on my leg, exactly like a kitten clinging to me. Our sleeping position is very strange, although it is blocked by the quilt and cannot be seen.
Once you take off the disguise, you can see this scene with your own eyes.