Chapter 6 I’m waiting for your choice

"Just like this, looking at you~ It is inevitable that I will be sad except for you and me, the bluebirds and the flowers and grass, in pairs..."

In the taxi, Chu Yue hummed She was singing a little tune and cuddled up next to me, while I was looking out the window at the night without any intention. She seemed very happy, and she had expected that I would change my mind and come back. She stopped humming, looked at me, and said happily: " Xiangyang, you are indeed tempted. It’s really hard for me to motivate you, the final boss.”

I was speechless. Could everything just be a routine? Was it all Chu Yue’s premeditated plan? She was obviously crying so sadly, so miserable, but now she happily hugged my arm, rested her head on my shoulder, and looked happily ahead. We are now as close as a real young couple.

"Could it be that you alone planned all our heart-breaking tears just now?"

"Yeah."

Chu Yue nodded without any trace of emotion. Sophistry, I admitted it decisively, I said in my heart that I was fucked, I was deceived by this little girl, could this be revenge for last night? I still fucking believe it is true. I, Yan Xiangyang, have been wandering carelessly for so long, and this is the first time I have fallen into the hands of a woman other than Gu Wei. I suddenly feel that this little girl is so scary.

I tried to push Chu Yue away, but it had the opposite effect. She hugged me closer, then turned to face me, frowned, and said, "Don't even think about running away. I had an abortion yesterday. , you are a heartless man and you are still not responsible. This is my revenge on you. You have to compensate me and send me home."

I sighed, and Wei Nuo nodded obediently, not daring to do it again. There is a trace of resistance. Maybe this little girl will use other means to retaliate against me in the future. It is not just physical revenge. She specializes in pinching my emotional weakness and tilting her emotional strength on it like crazy. Then letting these two emotions conflict, no matter which side wins, does no good to the victim.

Just like me, if Gu Wei's strong feelings in my heart win, I will feel guilty. I feel guilty that I did not help Chu Yue when she was at her lowest point. I feel guilty that she asked her to have an abortion. I will I have been feeling guilty for a lifetime. If the emotions exported by Chu Yue win, it will arouse my longing for Gu Wei. This kind of pain of dying will break through the blockade of my heart again.

This is really a good strategy, I am willing to give up.

My phone rang suddenly. Chu Yue let go of my arm. I picked up the phone and saw that it was Chen Zhen calling.

I answered the phone, "Xiang Yang, are you okay? It's really my fault today. I didn't treat you well."

I smiled and said, "Old Chen, It's okay, this is what I should do, it's just a matter of justice. If that gangster breaks your band's instruments, how can you still perform and make money? In this business, your instruments are more important than your own life. . ”

The noise on the other end of the phone seemed to have disappeared, it must be Du Xing.The bar was closed, "Okay, Xiangyang, I'll treat you to dinner tomorrow to make it up to you."

I agreed to the dinner invited by Chen Zhen and hung up the phone.

The taxi stopped at the entrance of a residential complex. I got out of the car and took Chu Yue home. When we were about to leave at the entrance of the residential complex, Chu Yue stopped me.

"Xiang Yang, I want to ask, what would you have done if I had insisted on giving birth to the child?"

I was a little hesitant, and the answer to this question was more likely to be mine. Are you willing to take responsibility?

I pondered for a long time, then thought about it and said, "If you want to give birth to the child, then I will be more attentive and take care of you while liking Gu Wei. ”

I think this answer is not perfect, but it does not violate my ideals and beliefs. I don’t want to do anything that will harm Gu Wei. She is the sun in my heart. If I don’t even have the sun in my heart, Believe it, how can you grow?

Chu Yue was a little angry, "Ignore you!" After she left these words, she walked towards the entrance of the community, her footsteps hurried.

I smiled, so this counts as me winning her back again, two to one, I won.

I was a little happy and left in the opposite direction. I looked at the time and saw that it was one o'clock in the morning. There was no taxi nearby. Should I walk back? It would probably be dawn when I got home. I looked around, hoping to see a small hotel where I could make do, but then I remembered that I didn't have a penny in my pocket.

I felt like I was going to die. Dark night, lonely person, nowhere to go. These words were superimposed on me, making me breathless.

"Xiang Yang, why don't you go to my house and stay overnight."

I looked back and saw that Chu Yue was standing behind me at some point. She seemed to know that I was In embarrassment, she reached out to me for help, but I was still hesitant to accept it.

I felt a little uneasy. The girl took the initiative to invite me to her house. It was either a fairy dance or a one-night stand. I looked at the dark night, and my heart was full of waves and thoughts. I wanted to look back, looking forward to the lights dimming. I want to look back and look forward to having her behind me...

·... Inside, the only light is the emergency escape signs on both sides. I blew out the smoke, and the white smoke was particularly conspicuous in the black corridor. Chu Yue led the way. The moment I blew out the smoke, she became hazy, as if she suddenly disappeared into the corridor the next second, teasing me again.

She came to her room door, skillfully took out the key from the carpet underneath, opened the door, and invited me in.

I felt unfamiliar with the things inside, but I still stepped in. Now I am not afraid that Chu Yue will play tricks on me. The moment she entered the living room, she quickly took off her shoes and put on her clothes. Put on your slippers and flop down on the sofa, with a comfortable and relaxed look on his face.

"Ah~, I'm finally back. I'm exhausted, Miss."

I put out the cigarette and asked her where the bathroom was. I wanted to wash off now. The stains on my body were tainted with the smell of a warm home that should not belong to this warm home. She pointed to the right, and I casually put on the spare slippers she kept at home, and then walked towards the bathroom.

"Xiang Yang, wait a moment."

Chu Yue immediately got up from the lazy sofa and walked to me, "What's wrong?"

Chu Yue said: "You take off your clothes later, I will iron them for you, even the collar will be wrinkled."

I took off my white work shirt in front of her, and she immediately covered it He turned his head away with a face, "Ah, you're perverted! I didn't ask you to take off your clothes now."

I smiled happily, "There's nothing to be shy about. It's not like we haven't seen each other before." ”

I suddenly found that my tense nerves relaxed, and I didn’t even notice it. Why is this? I have been harassed by tense nerves. Whenever I want to relax, I always think of many memories of the past. I can only use wine to relieve my sorrow and smoke to find my mind. But after a few simple chats with Chu Yue, I felt very happy. I always wanted to tease the girl in front of me who seemed innocent but actually had scheming intentions.

She took my white shirt, then looked at me towards the bathroom with a blushing face...

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I stood on the balcony of her house, holding the guardrail with both hands, looking at the city that never sleeps in front of me, the passing vehicles, the everlasting neon lights, the lights that turn off and on, how fast time flies. All people are like clockwork machines, cycling through the daily routine that is repeated every day. I am disgusted with the boring life, so I chose my lifestyle, which is to live an eclectic and muddled life.

I took out a cigarette, held it in my mouth and lit it, looking at the magical city of Shanghai. My heart was implicated in this city. In the house, Chu Yue was ironing my clothes with an iron. I was wearing her I was given loose pajamas, leaning against the guardrail, smoking a cigarette.

The cigarette was smoked out quickly. The wind smoked half of it and I smoked half of it. Maybe the wind also had its sorrows and took away half of my cigarette. What I gave back to me was the warmth it brought.

I lit a cigarette again, hoping to see the night view of the city.

At some point, Chu Yue came over from behind me and snatched the cigarette from my mouth. I wanted to snatch it back, but Chu Yue said in a very strong tone: "Don't smoke too much. Smoking is bad for the lungs. Do you know what happens to people who smoke too much?"

I didn't want to pay attention to Chu Yue's boring questions and said casually: "I don't know. ”

Chu Yue seemed to have noticed my impatience. She put out her cigarette and left it on the balcony. She walked to my side and watched Shanghai with me.night view.

"Xiang Yang, do you know what it means when a girl is willing to control your smoking, your drinking, and your freedom?"

This was the silence between the two of us. A few minutes later, Chu Yue suddenly asked the question. I thought about it and said, "It means she is very annoyed."

Although Chu Yue was a little shocked that I would say such a thing, she still felt She patiently said the answer, "It means she loves you very much."

Chu Yue used this answer as a metaphor for her love for me. I don't want to have anything to do with her again. I just want to wait for Gu Wei Come back, wait for June 6th, wait until everything is settled, then I can make a choice. I have waited for two years, and the answer is finally coming to the surface. The woman who has made me decadent for two years, when I face her again How will I feel when? sad? Happy? Or should we treat it with a normal mind?

None of this seems to be important anymore.

Chu Yue suddenly took my arm and said softly: "Xiang Yang, let's go back to the room. It's so cold here."

I looked at her and saw that she was cold When his body trembled slightly, he remembered that she had had an abortion, so he held back his complaints and followed her lead away from the balcony and the night view of the city that never sleeps.

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I lay on the bed in her room, staring blankly at the ceiling, emptying my mind, quietly waiting for the passage of time, and Chu Yue went to help. I hung up the ironed clothes, then lay on the bed with a tired look on my face, turned sideways, and looked at me with a smirk on my face.

"Are you happy?"

I asked, looking at the ceiling from beginning to end.

She nodded, "I'm so happy that someone is finally with me. Just like what the book says, if a person's mind is complicated, you might as well find someone you think you can rely on. Then empty your mind and feel the beauty."

It doesn't matter whether Chu Yue is pregnant or not, or whether she has had an abortion. I think I have to give her an explanation and explain that I still love Gu Wei. Please. She should respect herself and don't give out her love to the person she loves. This will only hurt herself and won't do any good.

"Chu Yue."

I called her, and she immediately responded to me, lying on the bed with me. Her expression seemed very happy, and she seemed to be happy just now. Daydreaming about the future with me.

"Chu Yue, you already know that I have a sweetheart, why do you still shower your little love on me?"

Chu Yue was stunned for a moment, and then began to meditate. , it seems that she is not surprised that I, a person who has always been a mess, suddenly said such serious words.

"Because... you are my sweetheart."

I felt sad, and such a simple reply almost made me burst into tears again. I have always loved others and enjoyed the love given by others. After losing Gu Wei, I seemed to have locked up love in my heart and kept it deep in my heart.The chair that belonged to Gu Wei, I waited for her to come back, and refused other feelings coming in from the outside. However, the chains that blocked my heart began to tremble, and I thought I would never be loved again...

The dusk light of the bedside table lamp hit Chu Yue and I’s faces. We didn’t say anything. I looked at the ceiling until it became blurry and blurred. I couldn’t tell whose face it was. Love is the direction of my future. Whose feelings are the ties of my life? Whose love is the only safe haven in my life.

Chu Yue sat up, her expression a little solemn, and she said gently: "Xiang Yang, what do you think our relationship is?"

I finally chose the former and sat up. , replied: "My one-night stand."

She did not reply, but took out an exquisite gift box from the drawer of the low table cabinet next to the bed, then opened it and handed it to me, Lying inside the gift box is an exquisite watch, which is even better than the watch I am wearing now.

"Xiang Yang, I can give whatever Gu Wei can give you. I heard Chen Zhen say that she left you for two years, and you were decadent for two years. Gu Wei's departure hurt you so much. Pain, how tired, how painful, you are always struggling alone, living with a mask that does not belong to you. I want you to cheer up, regain your confidence in life, and do A master of life, so don’t leave me, okay?”

I quietly took out the cigarette, lit it and took a deep breath, trying my best to stabilize the emotional thoughts that were about to become like a tsunami, and closed my eyes to stop them. Tears flowed.

After a while, I opened my eyes and said, "Why are you so stupid? Our relationship is so shallow, why do you need to be obsessed with me and stalk me?"

She closed the box and put it back in the drawer. It seemed that my rhetorical question gave her a vague two-way answer.

I turned off the light, lay down with my back to her, closed my eyes and prepared to spend the hard night, but suddenly she hugged me from behind and buried her head in my neck. Her hair fell on my neck, and her charming body fragrance instantly invaded my body, making me even more miserable.

"Xiang Yang, I will wait for your answer, no matter how long it takes, even if it is one year, ten years, or a hundred years, I will wait for the choice you make for me... ··"

Then she was silent for a while, and then said: "Good night, my sweetheart..."

The scar in my heart ached faintly.