I fell into a deep sleep in the rental house. After a night of fierce fighting with alcohol and nicotine, I was exhausted. I wanted to leave this secular world and let my noble spirit go to bliss. But the secular world seemed to have There is a certain magic that makes people unable to have a moment of peace.
The sound of renovating the house next door rang loudly. I was tossed and turned in bed due to the noise, and my fuzzy brain was aroused. I had no intention of sleeping anymore, so I sat up directly and cursed: "It's your uncle's fault for decorating." Why are you making such a big fuss? Do you want the neighbors around you not to know that your family is rich?"
I complained, and then scratched the sleeping hair, "Fuck you. "After cursing, he got up, picked up the cigarette case, and held one in his mouth. I walked out of the door in my pajamas and slippers. I wanted to see who had disturbed my clear dream. Who was so incompetent? I will be a fucking villain today to see if I don't make things difficult for him.
I came to the next door and stopped to watch. There were several workers inside decorating the room. One of them was drilling with a pickaxe. If he was tired of it, he would drill it towards the other side of my bedroom. The hole in the wall was only 20 centimeters thick. I was afraid that he would punch it through, so I pretended to be nonchalant and walked in. As soon as I stepped in, I was noticed by a middle-aged uncle with a sledgehammer.
He put down the sledgehammer and walked towards me, a little hastily, and said in Mandarin with a non-standard local accent: "Get out quickly, get out quickly."
He was in a hurry. Man, I resisted the anger of being woken up by them, and with a smile, I took out the Chinese cigarette I usually prepared for delivering guests from the cigarette case, and handed it to him. He was stunned, and then his eyes unconsciously glanced at He looked at the cigarette in my hand and then saw my cigarette case. His somewhat relaxed expression suddenly became gloomy again, and he was ready to drive me away again.
I was a little anxious, and cursed in my mind that he didn’t know what he was selling, and the cigarette holder was not the same as the one I was holding in my mouth.
Then I patiently added: "Hua Zi."
He hesitated again, then looked at my cigarette carefully, and I simply threw the cigarette to him. After catching it, he put it under his nose and smelled it. After confirming that it was correct, he held it in his mouth. Then he came to the young man with the electric pick and said, "Xiao Li, give me a fire."
Xiao Li stopped what he was doing, put his hand into his tight jeans, took out a lighter, and lit the cigarette for the middle-aged man. I took advantage of them to light the fire and walked around the room, looking at He looked at it and then asked: "Who are you decorating for? The layout and materials are so luxurious. Are they rich?"
"Young man is joking, we are in this business. It doesn’t matter who you pay to do the decoration, let alone live next door to you. We’ll say hello and see each other more often in the future.”
I chuckled and didn’t ask any more questions. He was hiding the information about the head of the household and turned around to leave. Go, and said before leaving: "Then please keep your voice down, so as not to disturb the rest of the neighbors."
The man nodded., I had no sleep at all, put on a set of casual clothes, and sat on the sofa thinking about what to do today. The phone suddenly came to my mind. I looked at the phone on the table and let it ring freely. After more than ten seconds, I called again. Answered, I looked at the phone notes, it was Chu Yue.
"Hey, Chu Yue."
"Xiang Yang, come to the airport to see me off. I bought a ticket for noon."
Chu Yue It was time to leave Shanghai. I promised to send her off, and I couldn't break my promise. I picked up my phone, went out, took a taxi downstairs, and then went straight to the airport. On the way, I thought of a few days What she said to me the night before was that I was her sweetheart, but I didn't want to delay this good girl like her. I just wanted to give her warmth as a friend and fulfill the responsibilities that a friend should do.
When I arrived at the airport, I ran into the departure hall. She was wearing a colorful dress, sitting alone on a stainless steel bench, with her head lowered and her feet shaking restlessly. The luggage around her confirmed her Determined to leave, I walked quietly to her side and sat down. She hadn't noticed me yet and was still playing with her legs. Suddenly an idea came to me, so I pinched my voice and said, "Little Girl, who are you waiting for here?"
"Waiting for someone important."
I nodded pretendingly, and then looked at her, but she still didn't. Looking up, with an expressionless face, and even the tone of the response just now was indifferent, I asked again: "Are you waiting for a person named Yan Xiangyang?"
She suddenly froze and stopped showing off. Legs, "How do you know!"
She suddenly raised her head and looked at me. I smiled brightly and said, "Because, he is by your side."
I smiled As she said this, her expression was very surprised and very happy, and then she looked at me with a bit of resentment and said dissatisfied: "We are about to say goodbye, and you are still teasing me. It seems that you have bad intentions, and there are always unscrupulous people in your mind." It hurts me."
I laughed a few times and said, "Oh, I just want to say goodbye to liven up the atmosphere, so as not to be so sad when we are separated."
She was killed. I moved, with a smile on my face, and she suddenly hugged her. I was a little frightened, my hands were froze in the air, her hair was scattered around my neck, and her body fragrance filled my nose.
"Thank you Xiangyang, thank you for coming to give me a ride."
I put my hands on her back and gave her a hug, "It's just a small thing. No need to thank me, I will do what I promised."
She let go of me, nodded, and then looked at me, suddenly thinking of something, she was slightly shocked and said softly. : "Xiangyang, did you... bring you a parting gift?"
She looked at me expectantly. I left a little hastily, and I didn't think so carefully. I put my hand into my pocket and pretended to take it out with some difficulty. In fact, it was to delay time. Every second I can delay is to let me use my brain's ability to operate. Can you?Let Chu Yue fool him.
She looked forward to it even more, and her eyes never left my hand that reached into my pocket. After a while of fumbling around, I found my cigarette case, so I broke the can and took out the cigarette case. , handed it to her.
She was stunned at first, and then looked at me with a disappointed look. She met my eyes. I coughed twice, and then said: "Stupid girl, have you forgotten that you had an abortion?" Where did the money come from? I am short of money and have no money to prepare a farewell gift for you."
I made a reasonable excuse for myself and tried to get away with it.
"Okay."
Chu Yue turned back a little disappointed, staring at the floor in a daze, but I am a little kind. This kind of kindness is probably the last remnant of this rotten person in the world. There is little warmth on the ground.
I took apart the plastic film from the bottom of the cigarette box, and then folded it into a small transparent plastic paper crane with ease. I wrapped the paper crane in the palm of my hands, and then pushed Chu Yue who was stunned. , said: "Why don't you guess what I have in my hand? If you guess correctly, there will be a gift."
Although Chu Yue was a little reluctant, she still cooperated with me. She thought Thinking, she said the word "love?"
"Yes, it is the paper crane that symbolizes beautiful love."
Her unintentionality promoted the development of things, no matter what she said I tried my best to round everything up, describing the dead as alive and the non-existent as having. I didn’t want to disappoint her. When I said goodbye, I also wanted to give her a good gift. I spread my hands and exposed The transparent paper crane inside said, "Hey, what do you think? It's beautiful. I'll give it to you."
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I looked at her proudly as she took the paper crane from my hand, held it in front of my eyes and observed it carefully, "That's awesome, where did you fold it?"
< p> "Well, we have to keep it mysterious.""Hmph, it's annoying."
Chu Yue pouted, but she still looked at the paper crane very intently. I don’t want to tell her the origin of this paper crane, and I don’t want to tell her where I learned the technique of folding paper cranes, because it will be very bad for both of us, it will arouse women’s desire to compare with each other, and it will remind me of memories. Deep scars.
I chuckled, then lit up a cigarette and smoked slowly. She took out a black box from the bag beside her and handed it to me with a smile on her face. On her face, "Xiangyang, this is for you, count it as my parting gift to you."
I took the gift box and wanted to open it, but she suddenly looked nervous and immediately grabbed my hand to open the gift box. I held my hand and said, "You can't look at it now. I can't look at it until I leave."
I nodded and put the gift box next to me. The boarding reminder sounded in the vast departure hall. Chu Yue quickly stood up and pulled up her luggage. I also stood up and said, "Let me help you with your luggage."
I said and got ready., she rejected me, turned around and walked to the ticket check-in area with her luggage. After walking a few steps, she immediately turned back and said softly: "Xiang Yang, when you come to Suzhou from now on, I will treat you to delicious food."
I chuckled and said, "You are such a glutton. You are still thinking about food before leaving."
She nodded happily, then released her hands holding the suitcase, and bent her waist slightly. She took a small step back with her left foot and placed it behind her right foot. Then she held both sides of her skirt with both hands and bowed to me.
I seemed to understand what she meant. I bent down slightly, spread the palm of my right hand and placed it in front of my lower abdomen. I put my left hand behind my back and returned the greeting.
These etiquettes were all learned when Gu Wei took me to dance practice in college. In order not to be embarrassed when dancing at her friends’ gathering, I forced myself to learn them.
Chu Yue straightened up without showing much shock
"Xiang Yang, let me dance for you, okay?"
I nodded. , Chu Yue immediately danced. In this crowded waiting hall, she was the most beautiful. Her dance movements were smooth and elegant, neither fast nor slow. The speed was average. Her limbs were used very coordinatedly, and her skirt swayed very much. Attractive, I understood why she wore a skirt today, because she had already planned to dance for me before leaving.
This is a classical dance, very beautiful, with a sleeve of fragrance and a ray of sadness. I understand ancient Chinese and like it very much.
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After the dance, I applauded silently for her. She smiled at me and said, "Xiang Yang, please stop smoking in the future. , not good for the lungs."
I nodded and replied, "Yes, remember."
She took out a bunch wrapped in plastic. The jasmine flower was handed to me. I took it and took a look. It was in good condition. It must have cost a lot of money. She said to me: "Xiang Yang, give me the jasmine flower."
I was stunned, and then gave her the jasmine flowers at a loss. I didn't understand what this girl was doing. She took the flowers and unpacked them. At this moment, the radio played the boarding information again, as if urging Chu Yue.
Chu Yue said with some tenderness: "I send Jun Moli to you and advise you not to leave."
Then she grabbed her luggage again and left her last words before leaving, "You gave it to me as a gift." I like Zhihe very much. Even if we are apart, we should keep in touch."
I watched her leaving back until she was submerged in the sea of people. In this city of desire, we are both here. Not involuntarily.
I looked at my hand, which still had the fragrance of jasmine flowers, and couldn't help but feel a little lost. I whispered in my mouth: "Jasmine Jasmine...Moli...Moli..."
On my hand The remaining jasmine fragrance was carried away by the passing crowds. I could only watch the afterglow of this jasmine fragrance that made me lose my mind, drifting with the world, dissipating bit by bit, until I lost myself.
Each flower has its own fragrance.The road has its own scenery, and our parting is not what anyone wants. What she said to me about separation should be to herself. She still wants to stay in this city, and she still wants to be with the person she likes again. We met, but the reality is a long river that leads to the front without stopping. Even though she is strong, she cannot be alone in the end. In this terrible city, she will eventually dissipate in the vast sea of people drifting with the current like the fragrance of jasmine. .
I don’t want to blend in, but I still step in. It turns out that those moths who get the light will still fall into the darkness of the world. The light that represents warmth is still fake after all, and what is fake is really real. , the fallen moths will no longer think about the future of life, and will not look for the sun in their hearts, while those moths who were originally in the darkness are more lucky.
Their indifference to the world promotes their noble inner changes, allowing them to see more clearly through this hypocritical and bright entity.
But... can a moth that does not yearn for light live long? Can you find your place in this city?
Really...can it?
I sat on the bench and opened the gift she gave me before leaving. There was the watch lying inside. It was the watch Chu Yue wanted to give me. I picked up the watch and wanted to take a closer look. This watch is really exquisite and cannot be made by street vendors. I put it on my wrist and measured the size, only to find out that it was a private order.
I habitually looked at the back cover of the watch. There was no engraving on it. Then I looked at the dial. There was a string of words "Sweetheart" written in continuous strokes.
I smiled. , put the watch back in the box, there was a bank card and a letter inside, I took out the letter inside...
"Xiang Yang, the password of the bank card is six zeros, inside The 30,000 yuan I have earned from working in Shanghai over the years can be regarded as the compensation I have given you these days. When I return to Suzhou this time, I may not return to Shanghai again, so...it was so sad when I said goodbye. Pain, I am unwilling, I am unwilling to leave this city where I entrusted my youth, I am unwilling to leave you, I am unwilling... But fortunately you can come and take me to the plane, I will not feel lonely , with your company, I feel warm, and I realize how wonderful it is, so I will wait for you in Suzhou, and wait for you to come to Suzhou and tell me the answer that night. I can wait a year, ten years, or even a hundred years, even if you If I marry someone else, I can wait for you to change your mind. With your company these days, I will work harder and be firm in the choice in my heart. No matter whether it is right or wrong, I will stick to it. I will move towards the choice in my heart. Beautiful ideals are moving forward. Even in a secular city, as long as our original intention is not lost, we can be independent. I will work hard in Suzhou. When I become successful, I will love you."
Me. I fell silent, leaned on the bench, lit a cigarette, and felt mixed emotions in my heart...