When I walked out of the restaurant, the sky outside was already covered by fire clouds. My eyes were empty and could not hold anything. After I walked out of the door, I realized that parting was so melancholy and desolate. If you don't want to let go of something, say goodbye and leave.
I left silently, the only one who was hurt was myself. I endured the loneliness in my heart and learned to bear all the painful emotions that I should have experienced. I looked at the roasted meat in a daze, reflected red by the setting sun, and the traffic on the road. The noise brought me back to reality.
I said goodbye silently, walking towards the distance, strolling on the avenue, lowering my head and unwilling to face it. My back was stretched by the sunset, and I was alone. The emptiness in my heart was filled with infinite The magnification of the situation makes me feel that staying here is also a mistake.
Without Chu Yue, I am nothing. She is like an antidote, giving me a hazy heart, blowing a warm wind, dispersing the haze, and then hugging each other tightly.
I took out my mobile phone, applied for Lalamove shipping on the platform, called the driver, and waited downstairs at the rental house while I went to do some business and rushed back.
There are residential complexes standing not far away, and my goal is there. Yu Qing’s new house is in one of the residential buildings. I found twelve buildings and took the elevator to the 23rd floor. , came to the concierge named 1204 and knocked on the door.
Through the peephole, Cheng Cheng saw the person coming clearly, opened the door for me, and said with a smile: "What kind of evil wind brought you here, the prodigal son? Huh? Where is Chu Yue? She Didn't she come with you?"
Cheng Cheng looked at me, looking for something. I shook my head and walked into the room swaggeringly, "She didn't come to Shanghai, I'm the only one who came back to Shanghai to handle it. After completing the resignation procedures, I vacated my old house, packed my luggage, and said goodbye completely. I will stay in Suzhou from now on."
I said with some regret, and sat on the sofa without any formality at all. He picked up the apple on the glass table, rubbed it on his clothes, and started to nibble. On the LCD TV in the living room, a palace drama was playing, which was a plot of internal fighting.
"Oh, that's it. Why don't you sit down and wait for Yu Qing? He has been very busy since he was promoted, and even the time to get off work has been postponed. Why don't you stay and have a meal? Let's eat, I'll make something delicious."
Cheng Cheng walked towards the kitchen, skillfully took out an apron from behind the door and tied it on, then started rummaging through the cabinets...
I looked around. This was my first time here. It was well decorated and brand new. After all, I had just gotten married and had only moved in for a few days. The balcony windows and doors were open, and the sunset outside The slanting shot came in, attracting me, and I got up and walked away as if I couldn't control it.
When I came to the balcony, it was very spacious. I looked at the scenery in the distance, the high-rise buildings, and the circulating traffic. Under the balcony, there was a small park with fitness equipment. The sound of children playing and playing disturbed me, causing me to look down at them.
KitchenThe smell of rice came from inside, and Cheng Cheng stuck his head out and asked, "Xiang Yang, what do you want to eat? Tell your sister, I'll make you what you like."
"Whatever you want to eat." "No, I don't have anything to eat."
I replied plainly, women like to make random guesses, maybe they can guess right? Cheng Cheng noticed my state, so he slowly walked out of the kitchen and asked cautiously: "What's wrong with you? Are you unhappy? Or sad? Tell me about it? Maybe I can enlighten you?"
I shook my head, took a bite of the apple, and said vaguely: "It's not what you imagined."
"No, there must be something fishy, although I can't guess what you are thinking. What, I can't make up my mind, but you are a bit strange. You hide everything when you encounter it. Even if you are sad, normal people will burst into tears, but you don't cry or make trouble, just Like now, he is so quiet and scary, and he doesn’t do anything dangerous or inappropriate, which is very confusing."
Cheng Cheng followed my example, lying on the guardrail and looking into the distance. .
"Xiang Yang, sister, I dare to ask, is it because of Gu Wei's matter?"
I turned to look at her in surprise, her face reflected the sunset, She tied her hair up, wore an apron, and no longer dressed so appropriately. She was very mature, but she still retained some of the childishness she once had.
My eyes began to dodge. The answer had already surfaced. There was no need to ask anymore. Cheng Cheng sighed and said: "People always realize after the fact, no matter what they feel, happiness, love,... Friendship is a relatively rich thing, and it doesn't matter. It wasn't until later that I worried about gains and losses, and then I realized how precious it is. In fact... From the moment you met at the wedding, I knew clearly that there was a strong relationship between you. They both still like each other, but because of their current status and the grudge between them, they refused to speak, and then went to an extreme."
I stared at her face in confusion, Cheng Cheng said. It was so right, one sentence revealed the reluctance between Gu Wei and me.
She faced the sunset and continued: "I have not told anyone about these things, including Yu Qing. I have taken care of them for you and Gu Wei. The tragedy at the wedding was an accident, and you don't have to." If you have too much self-blame and hatred, you have to let go of something in order to move forward. It is difficult for a person's life to be perfect. Monks are about not killing. If you break the precepts, you will not be perfect. Taoists are about doing the right thing for heaven. Even if you harm others, you will not be perfect. If you do something wrong, you don't have to worry about it. Just because something is wrong doesn't mean the person is wrong."
I slowly moved my eyes away, looked in the opposite direction, and listened quietly. Her monologue.
"I feel sorry for you and Gu Wei, but at the same time I feel helpless and sad. I think this love should not end so hastily. You obviously still have a future, but you chose Chu Yue to pursue Your comfort when you are sad has ruined your fate, which will lead to chaos and make you and Gu Wei continue to be together.If you continue to be entangled, torture, pain, helplessness and melancholy will permeate your heart. "
"But... I can't get the best of both worlds. I'm also very helpless. Loving Chu Yue turns out to be a kind of self-torture. Gu Wei's pain makes me feel sad whenever I'm free. I can understand that if I choose Gu Wei, my conscience will feel guilty, as if it is being torn apart. I will let Chu Yue down. I can't bear to feel sorry for such a good girl like her. ”
I lowered my head, my nose was sour.
Cheng Cheng did not give an answer to this question. She also knew that this was a question that could only be half completed no matter how it was solved. It feels really uncomfortable to be weighed down. Boring questions are often the hardest to understand.
Maybe many years later, even after I get married and have children, I can still recall my deep love before. People who have experienced this will also feel sad alone when no one is around. Since ancient times, most men have been very infatuated. If they really like someone, even if the ending is not her, they will leave a chair in their hearts for her. < /p>
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Use tears to retain, use words of love to prove, use inexpressible love to embrace each other, like the breeze embracing the moon and the herbs. It is as romantic and flawless as protecting flowers.
It is as if the love of the moment has turned into money and security. The love that was originally vague and could not be accurately defined has taken shape under the changes of the times. The entity stands out from people's imagination, and the nobility becomes a cheek, only for a moment.
Things that cannot be defined are rare and precious...
Once. Contaminated with reality, it’s all rubbish.
The love I once had was the unspeakable secret love from my heart, the blushing face and the submissive look. The love now is worth hundreds of thousands. A wedding house, a stable job, and taking time to add some happy things to each other's lives.
I am not opposed to bold love or expressing love in any form. I just hope. , can give each other a common ideal world, work side by side, and not be restricted by the so-called material things.
The freest love is also something that is rare for me now.
< p> I have Chu Yue, and I won’t envy others, but I am still upset and bored because of my inner imbalance.“Do you want to know what Gu Wei thinks of you? "
Cheng Cheng brought the topic to Gu Wei. I shook my head, expressing my ignorance.
She said: "She said you are a very nice person. Even if we haven't seen each other for many years, you are still the same. He was as stupid as when we first met. He didn’t know how to express himself, didn’t understand other people, and didn’t understand anything. He was like a young boy who had just entered society. He was ignorant and didn’t know anything. But I liked him very much, and I just liked him.In this way, I like his ignorance, his inexpressible love, and his silly look, but... none of this will happen again, and the blow caused to him by the breakup is irreparable. Yes, I also made mistakes, so I blame myself more. When he was happy, I also felt very sad. I was jealous of the woman around him. I wished I could be her, but I couldn't do such extraordinary things, so I could only resort to extreme measures. Way to comfort yourself..."
"It turns out... these are Gu Wei's sincerity. "
I sighed softly. Before I had time to calm down, the door was pushed open. Yu Qing was a little anxious. He was carrying a bag of vegetables, sweating profusely, and looked very awe-inspiring in a suit. .
“Phew, I’m exhausted. "
He took off the work tag around his neck and looked towards the balcony, a little surprised, "Why are you here?
He smiled, and I forced a smile and said, "Why can't I come here?" ”
Yu Qing walked to the edge of the balcony and punched me lightly on the shoulder. From the corner of my eye, I caught sight of the tag on his heart. The deputy general manager of Weixing Group— —Yu Qing.
I straightened my posture, bowed respectfully, and said seriously: "Hello, Vice President. "
With a tone of teasing me.
"Stop joking, can you restrain yourself a little, and don't act so unfamiliar. "
He grinned and couldn't hold back his lips.
"Okay, I've met both of you and your wife. I'm leaving Shanghai tonight and I'm here to talk to you. Farewell. "
Yu Qing was a little surprised, but Cheng Cheng remained calm.
"So fast? I already know about your resignation from the company. I didn’t buy a beer. I was thinking about you. I’ll have a few drinks tonight and stay here to sleep or something. I’ll leave tomorrow. I didn’t expect you to be anxious tonight. Go back and hug your wife to sleep, no! No matter what, you have to stay for a meal. "
Yu Qing said firmly and pulled me to the kitchen table. I refused repeatedly and let go, "No, no, the driver of Lalamove is still waiting for me to go back. Let’s skip this meal. It’s not like we can’t get together again in the future. Then we can all bring our wives and have a fun meal together, go on a trip, etc. How beautiful it is. "
Yu Qing knew that he couldn't stop me, so he let go of his hand. Although he was a little regretful and unwilling, he still took out a wad of money from his pocket, counted it and it turned out to be one thousand. When I was at a loss, he suddenly hugged me
"Brother..."
This time he hugged me with a cry. It's very tight.
"When you arrive in Suzhou, you must live a good life. Don't be careless. Find a stable job as soon as possible. Let's make a big fuss on the day of your wedding. ”
I smiled and huggedHe asked Yu Qing, patted him hard on the back and agreed to him.
Before leaving, the couple held their arms and stood at the gate of the community to see them off. I waved to them to say goodbye. Yu Qing shouted at me, "Don't bully Chu Yue, if you If you dare to beat or scold someone, I will be the first to go to Suzhou and skin you alive!"