From the moment I left, I never heard Gu Wei's call again. She seemed to have understood my determination. From the moment I stepped out the door and ignored three calls, I had no intention of turning back.
It was me who cut off my own escape route and dispelled all possibilities. I could no longer look back and be alone. Maybe I was just muddy.
I walked towards the Shanghai subway station. Chen Zhen’s rental house was nearby. I staggered upstairs, feeling a little confused. I stopped in front of a closed wooden door and raised my hand to knock on it. Knock on the door.
These old houses are not soundproofed. You can clearly understand what the people inside are doing just by putting your ear against the door.
"Who is it?"
Chen Zhen yelled and opened the door. He was wearing a white vest and patterned shorts. He was very sloppy and his hair was messy.
He yawned and said vaguely: "It's you."
"Don't you welcome me when I come?"
He shook his head, turned sideways to clear the aisle for me, and said, "Come in."
I walked in. I have been here many times, and there were beer cans piled on the balcony and on the cement floor. , the melon seed shells stored in the potholes, Chen Zhen is from the south, and the bed he sleeps on is naturally a mat, a mosquito net hanging, and an old electric fan whirring.
Chen Zhen sat down on the edge of the bed, picked up a pack of cigarettes from the wooden table in front of him, took out one and started smoking.
I pulled out a plastic bench from under the table and sat down.
"Did you encounter something disturbing when you came to my place?"
Chen Zhen asked, he knows me very well, and I usually refuse to come even to death, but here I dislike the mess, but it's this kind of dislike that makes him realize what's bothering me every time I step into this place.
I nodded and said with some frustration: "Well, I'm upset."
"Tell me about it?"
I looked outside the balcony, Chen Zhen lifted his right leg and put it next to the bed. The hair on his leg was very thick.
"I had an unpleasant incident with Gu Wei. I... want to disappoint her."
Just a few words made my eyes red. I lowered my head, not daring to reveal my embarrassed side to Chen Zhen.
He didn’t care much about Gu Wei and me. He just looked away from me and landed on a suit hanging on the cement wall. It was very clean and without a trace of wrinkles.
"You just take things too seriously and are too sensitive to feelings. As long as anyone gives you a little love, you seem to have to dig out your heart and lungs for them, and the result is misery again and again." Lesson, do you know why a beauty like Gu Wei Chuyue falls in love with you?"
Chen Zhen said, then put the cigarette into the ashtray and put it out, and I slowly raised it.Head, I have never thought about this problem. I am indeed too sensitive to feelings. Whether it is normal verbal conversation or physical contact, I take it very seriously. I am afraid of losing it and being thrown away like garbage.
“They don’t like your outstanding appearance or the love you give them. What they like about you... is the romance when you play the guitar in a tipsy state. I like your shrewdness in dealing with people, I like your courage to take action when encountering difficulties, I like your ordinary way of looking down on fame and fortune, I like your chicness when you take responsibility and fulfill your promise after making it, and I like your heroic ambition when you talk. The temperament that you can't detect is what attracts them."
Chen Zhen said slowly, like a respected teacher, educating students to see themselves clearly.
“The blooming of flowers will attract bees and insects. No matter whether they are beautiful or ugly, even if the petals are withered and few petals are withered, there will always be insects stopping on them. They don’t care about the beauty of the flowers, but only care about the sweetness inside the flowers. "
Chen Zhen pulled out a bag of beer cans from under the bed, took out two cans of beer, and threw one to me. Before I could recover, I opened the ring and touched it with him. Bottle, drink in big gulps.
As I drank, I laughed and cried. The corners of my mouth couldn't help but rise, but I couldn't hold back the tears that wanted to escape my eyes.
Chen Zhen looked at me suspiciously, a little surprised.
I said: "This beer of yours...is it fucking expired? It's so painful for you. It makes me cry. It's as stupid as that pain mask." "
"Hahahaha..."
Chen Zhen smiled wildly and glanced at the side of the beer can in his hand, only to find that it had expired for a long time. No wonder It will add fire to such an atmosphere.
I put down the beer, and the bitterness in my mouth became more profound. I walked up to the balcony and lay on the guardrail to look out. The balcony here was very narrow and could only accommodate two people. There were piles of junk on the other side of the balcony.
Chen Zhen walked up, carried his guitar, climbed up the guardrail, turned his back to the tall building, sat on the guardrail, hooked his feet underneath, and started playing and singing.
"Be careful. Don't fall down later. I will collect your body. The feeling of being broken into pieces is not pleasant. There will be pain for a while before death."
I am kind to advise you, Chen Zhen. Dismissively, "Push me down if you can. I won't blink and I won't resent you."
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I smiled and pushed him gently. Chen Zhen's body tilted a little and began to shake, "Damn it, kid, don't do this, I'll give you a blowjob."
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Chen Zhen jumped down in a panic and punched me in the chest. I patted the dust on my clothes and followed his lead back to the house.
"I will leave completely soonShanghai, don’t you, Chen Zhen, have nothing to say to me? From acquaintance to mutual acquaintance, it is always accompanied by the sentence "no fight, no acquaintance", you and I, Yu Qing, can be regarded as brothers who have passed our lives. "
I asked, sitting back on the stool. This time, Chen Zhen didn't dig out his old money. He went to the kitchen to rummage in the refrigerator, took out two bottles of cold beer, and drank a glass of each other.
"Ah~ Brother, when you leave, of course you have to give me a grand farewell. I don't like crying or bells and whistles, I just like purity. If you want to leave, I don't have anything to give you, so I will show my shame and play for you. Let’s sing a song. Happy people are not welcome in Shanghai. I am happy for you to find happiness. If something happens to you in Suzhou, bring your brothers and sisters back to Shanghai to find me. I, Chen Zhen, will be the first to stand by your side. Bi Yu To celebrate, the boy has to go a lot faster. Even if you make a mistake, I will bear it with you. Don't drag your brothers and sisters down. A man dares to take responsibility. Good brother, in my heart. "
Chen Zhen said happily. After that, he picked up his guitar and started singing loudly. There was no metronome, so he shook his legs to make sure.
I nodded and couldn't help but smile. Upward, this is the first time I feel happy. When leaving, I can satisfy my heart, no longer empty, no longer melancholy. The moment of departure should not be sad and sad, but the warmth of the sun, and Happy congratulations.
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I left Chen Zhen’s rental house and came to Xinyi’s restaurant, a small restaurant in the corner of the city that no one cares about. The restaurant doesn't have a particularly attractive sign, nor does it have very authentic dishes, but it has a sense of comfort that belongs to me.
It was the one who was willing to lend a helping hand and accept me when I came to Shanghai.
Its weight is priceless. When no one comes, I will break it. I will be the last guest and order the cheapest food, even if it is for this place. A place full of memories, adding a touch of brilliance.
I opened the door, walked in, and subconsciously looked around to see the number of customers at the moment.
There were only a few tables. , the proprietress sitting at the front desk was depressed, holding her cheek and tapping on the computer. She was very depressed.
She didn't realize that I was here. She just looked at the bill with a sad face and sighed. The number of customers these days is not good. I couldn't make ends meet and was losing money.
I leaned against the counter and she asked subconsciously, "Would you like cigarettes or wine?" There isn't much wine left, just a few familiar bottles, and there aren't many cigarettes left, just a few sticks. If you want, I'll sell them to you at a cheap price, which can be regarded as a last visit. "
She was very frustrated when she spoke. I glanced at the cigarette rack behind her. There were a lot of cigarettes missing, and many brands were empty. I didn't say anything, and stretched my neck to look at the cigarette rack she was flipping around in her hands. She also noticed the strangeness of this "guest" and raised her eyes to glance over.
I raised the corner of my mouth slightly, grabbed the small ledger from her and opened it.Wang Wang commented: "Xinyi, your store is not very good. It will go bankrupt in just a few years."
She smiled bitterly, lay back, and collapsed. Sitting on the rocking chair, he said slowly: "There is no way. There has been too much competition among peers in the past few years, not to mention the hygiene standards. Just some chores have made me very busy. Since you left the restaurant, things have gone downhill." . ”
“Do you want to blame me?”
I put the account book back, Xinyi shook her head and said, “I didn’t mean to blame you, you left unexpectedly. Among them, I ran away from home and started my own business at a young age. It was already the limit to get to this point. It was only a matter of time before the store closed down. At worst, I had to stop the loss in time and close it as soon as possible to save money and try again in the future. "
Xinyi glanced at this restaurant, feeling very nostalgic and reluctant to leave. I calmed down, looked at the few customers in the store, and couldn't help but frown, feeling very unhappy in my heart.
I want to help this restaurant and do my part to prevent it from going bankrupt, but I have no choice. I don’t have the power to reach the sky with my hands, nor do I have the coveted money. ...... With funding, this restaurant will not go bankrupt, but problems will arise. Short-term help is not a long-term solution. Only by letting Xinyi understand the core problems of the restaurant and solve the root causes can it be saved.
Otherwise, it will just be like an endless abyss, swallowing money.
It is unlikely that I will serve as CEO. I don’t want to hurt my brothers and teachers, even in Suzhou. I am not in the right position and have not learned how to balance power. The things under my hands, they Even if I am fired, there will always be some clever bugs who work hard and do nothing.
I never exaggerate, nor am I arrogant or complacent. I look at things from their perspective and look at both pros and cons.
Unless something happens and I have to take the position, I will not agree to Qiu Hui.
"I am ready to leave Shanghai completely. This time I come here to see you and this restaurant as a farewell."
"Then you have to be nice , take a closer look, after all, there is no store like mine in Suzhou."
Xinyi said optimistically, she slowly got up from the rocking chair and walked out, "How about you. Let's stay for dinner. It seems to be getting late. I'll treat you to this meal."
I shook my head and declined her kindness, "It's better not to waste money, your restaurant will be ruined. I don’t know how to save money, maybe hang up a banner and put up a few pictures, the business will be booming.”
I teased her like a joke and took out a bottle of drink from the freezer. , Xinyi clicked her tongue and said: "You kid,He said he wanted me to save money, but he went to buy drinks for free. "
I smiled and responded: "It's a retard not to take advantage of others. Besides, on the day of my wedding, I will definitely do it in a more glorious way. I will naturally keep the money to marry my wife. When the time comes, At that time, you were at the first table, sitting next to Chen Zhen, enjoying the hot food and having a good time, and your share of the money was spared. ”
With a smile on her face, Xinyi waved to me and watched me leave...